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Horse Ride at Dataran

2012-02-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

"Horsey, hmm.. I'm not going to smile" said Angah

The other day.. like any other weekends or holiday, there would be some out of the blue, demands and wants from my precious.. Horse ride is one of them. It's RM5 per ride per child. This horse is bought from Kelantan. It is not too big but not really that small either. Kids love them some fear them.

My precious wanted to play the kites but wind were not cooperating. THERE IS NO WIND!!!.. So they run around holding the kites and it did fly .. for a while but after that, it just heads down to earth.

But the ride really nailed it. Their day that day were made. It was fun but RM10 is deducted for that quirky little smile of theirs.

@2012..

2012-01-03T14:18:00.001+08:00

Year Resolution? Check.. not done yet.. hehehe
Wish List Updated? Check... errr... not updated.. hahaha

Funny.. but true.. every year I'll do that list and yet.. never looked at it again till like... erkk.. its end of year!!!... Ish ish ish... no regrets..

Fireworks at KLCC.. nope I wasn't there silly!!.. ehehe

Because, it's not time yet for me to get them.. If I will, I'll be.

Anyway folks.. happy NEw YEar.. Don't drink AND drive yourself, parties are for clubbers and I don't mean club as in golf.. hehehe.. get it? nahh.. hehehe.. forgive and don't forget.

I've got tons to do!!! So see you when I see you... Roger and Out!!...Why does it have to roger???? ... erkk.. kiddingggggg!!!!...

Teru Teru Bozu in Good Mood m(^_^)m

Wrong Mood.. or Wrong Mode..

2011-12-19T10:06:00.001+08:00

My mood was so-so.. not so great but not bad either... so far it was because tomorrow is my field day with the specialist... scared to know what the heck is going on with me...hehehehe.. nothing serious really.. just tired easily, tummy ache all the time, and a thing or two...

@Work Pays me to pay the Bills

Was really perked up when listening to JJ and Ian on the Hitz.FM.. they really had it going there.. hehehe... my fav so far is Ian.. JJ.. I don't know.. sometimes he is funny.. other times.. he is just plain weird... no offence JJ.. hehehe.. Ian you're awesome dude!..

Today, I have like tons to do at work but haish.. spoilt like expired milk mannn.. gone with the wind my RAJIN-NESS to do my work today. I think I had the spoilt wrongly spelt.. what do you think?..

OK.. gotta hang tough.. need to focus on my job ... I will deal with my emo part later.. Boss will be expeting my report by this week man.. urgghh.. haven't even finished anything yet!!!...

This entry is to vent out my frustration.. Susah nak buang rasa sakit di hati ni.. I pressed the wrong Mood or Mode ah???... Mode: Work.. Mood: Rajin.. Mode: Hurt ... Mood: Low Down Babe...

Ok.. ok already.. WORK WORK WORK.. RAJIN RAJIN RAJIN...

Changes is good...in phases

2011-12-16T12:10:00.000+08:00

I had made a radical change to my career... I know it sounded crazy but yup.. I forgo my so call dream job..( to be able to do risk mgmt transformation) and chose to be with an association.

I know!!.. isn't it crazy? hehehe.. but I don't know.. I just want a change of environment or more so, to challenge myself and see how far I can stop myself from regretting my own decision.. wakakaka.. FUNNY TALKS!!!.. CESSSSS

It wasn't that bad... Afterall I was caught in this line for almost a year, and it has provided me with a sense of excitement if you may call it. Thanks to some very prominent people that came into my little sphere and led me into this thing they called Regulatory Affairs or Government Relations... oh man.. I was roped in as Research Fellow.. as in.. the Gal who does all the research la.. what else.. hahaha..

I guess I have proved to be a small asset among those big shots coz I'm still here.. I haven't ran away .. yET.. hehehe...

Now I know why Fred was determine to get us to understand what is RESEARCH and ITS METHODOLOGY are all about. We kind of put off by him when doing our PART 1 Masters studies. .. but it is worth it.. every single little and big things he had taught us.

Actually I'm now watching two contractor fixing an additional layer of tint to our office windows. My staff has gone out for an early lunch as she can't do much with the two working close to our work stations. One of the window is pretty close to her side table. So, a no-no to be around.

Someone will be reading this. or two or three.. I don't really know but I just want to say ... Thanks for always coming by and reading all these crap.. hahahaha...

All these are extra baggage from little old me.. hehehe..

Until the next opportunity, I will keep dumping more scraps here. :-)

m(>_^)m

Aha!!... finally..

2011-12-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

EricKnowsitAll.com

ahah!!.. finally. Found the way to post new post .. get it.. to post new post.. hehehe.. its been awhile and I really didnt allocate any specific time to work on a solution to it. Malas is one thing but more of it's not that critical at the point of inquiry. :-)

Now that I'm in, I have a lottttt lottt lottt lot lot to say.. but then again.. I more or less forgotten what were the stuffs I want to talk about.

Anyway, am happy I've found my way back to my blog again. Gosh, felt like ages ago since I SAY anything here. hehehe..

Be seeing ya!!!

Sigh...

2011-11-12T00:53:00.001+08:00

Hari ini seperti hari-hari sebelumnya.. aku tidak dapat menahan diriku dari mengeluh.. dan mengeluh.. dan mengeluh..

Kadang aku rasa nak sangat makan sleeping pills supaya aku boleh tidur dan tidur dan tidur.. tak bangun-bangun.. supaya aku tidak mengeluh.. supaya aku tidak menangis... tidak sedih... ni sekarang boleh aku tersedak dengan air liur sendiri... haiii.. apa nak jadi ngan aku ni..

Mujur aku ada permataku.. mujur ada teman rapat ku... mujur aku masih ingat pada yang Esa.. mujur aku teringat pada keluarga... pada omak...aku tak ingat melihat omak sedih.. omak merunggut.. omak membebel marah.. kadang melampiaskan kecewanya... sedih aku melihat.. apatah lagi mendengar...

Malam kian lewat.. aku masih celik.. terkebil-kebil seorang diri.. berlatar belakangkan my haziq yang tak putus-putus menatap lappynya.. smurf smurf smurf... la la la la la la .. sing the happy song.. dah melekat lagu smurf di telinga ku.. dia turut sama dengan penuh semangat.. siap buat summersault.. nasib baik tak bertukar jadi ultraman ke, superman ke.. hehehe.. lucu.. seketika.. telatah, karenah, perangai dan tuturkata menjadi penawar.. senyum jugak aku akhirnya... sigh..

Ya, aku mengeluh lagi... aku ada kerja.. esok la aku buat.. mungkin selepas aku masak untuk makan tengah hari.. ada tamu yang nak bertandang..

Esok ... dapatkan aku melihat atau mendengar azan subuh esok?... sigh.. entah la.. mau kah aku? I wish.. but I wish I won't more.. bukan kerana apa.. cuma merasa letih.. merasa teramat penat.. penat .. penat-penat pun kena teruskan jugak kan? hehehe... ya lah.. Allah kan ada.. insyaAllah.. semuanya akan selesai jugak.. terungkai jugak..

Doaku panjang.. makin hari makin panjang.. Ya Allah .. Kabulkan la doa hambaMu ini.. Aminnnn...Aminnn.. Ya Rabbi Alaminnn...

Aku hanya la seorang...

2011-11-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

Ya benar.. aku cuma seorang.. bukannya aku bleh buat magic.. boleh buat miracle.. itu hanya Allah sahaja yang boleh lakukan.. tapi jika boleh aku tolong padamkan rasa sakit, aku akan tolong padamkan... jika aku boleh tolong hilangkan rasa duka, akan aku hilangkan dengan serta merta.. jika aku boleh happy kan orang SENANTIASA tanpa gagal akan ku lakukan jugak..

TETAPI...

aku bukan siapa-siapa.. aku cuma seorang.. aku ni manusia biasa.. sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit.. ni kan lagi aku yang terdiri dari flesh and blood... who am I? no body.. hanya umat Allah yang kebetulannya hidup dalam dunia yang penuh dengan pelbagai karenah manusia seperti aku..yang punya rasa, punya salah, punya betul, punya itu dan punya ini...

tak pe la.. aku rasa ramai lagi aku perlu ucapkan maaf.. mungkin dari cara itu aku akan "pergi" dengan lebih tenang.. ait!!.. jangan la salah paham.. bukan aku nak kata aku nak bunuh diri.. aku cuma mengingati mati.. mati itu pasti.. cuma kita tak tau bila, bagaimana dan di mana..

kadang orang menyampah kot tengok aku boleh ketawa2, senyum2 dan borak2 mcm tak de apa2.. tu orang yang pakai mata kasar dan bukan mata hati.. kalau tgk ngan mata hati mereka akan melihat keadaan aku yang sebenarnya... best kan jadi manusia.. penuh dengan rasa yang berbagai2.. kadang sampaikan kita dapat memesongkan pandangan orang lain..

contohnya.. suami yang sayang bini.. kita yang melihat menggunakan mata kasar akan kata.. dia tuh takut bini.. tapi in actually fact.. mungkin benar.. mungkin jugak tidak.. bukan kita di tempatnya..

suami yang berkasar macam barbarian ngan bini.. sampai orang merasa bini dia tuh macam hamba .. ada jugak macam penakut jadinya.. sama jugak kes dia.. kita tak tau jalan cerita sebenarnya..

NAMUN BEGITU

ada juga yang seperti yang kita lihat dan kita nilai.. kadang2 first impression is the right one.. KADANG2 aku kata.. bukan semestinya betul.. kan kan kan...

haiii.. kena ingat .. apa pun aku coret di sini adalah rasa hati aku .. kadang sebagai peringatan pada diri.. jugak sebagai teladan pada para pembaca.. kadang bagus jugak untuk orang memahami isi hati aku yang kadang terlalu sarat.. terlalu penuh dan terlalu dalam sehinggakan dah tak kenal mana yang racun.. mana yang penawar..

Semoga Allah maafkan aku.. seperti yang aku ingin katakan.. yang buruk tu sentiasa dari kita.. yang baik itu semuanya dari Allah.. hanya Allah sahaja yang layak mengatakan seseorang itu ikhlas, baik dan beriman.. TAPI apa yang kita boleh lakukan adalah berusaha sedaya upaya mengikhlaskan diri, jadi orang yg baik dan berusaha menambah iman di dada...

Hati ni kan.. bila dah hitam.. penuh dendam.. hanya doa saja la yang dapat kita lakukan .. semoga Allah dapat menggantikan hati itu dengan yang baru.. berkat doa seorang ibu, seorang isteri atau suami, seorang anak, seorang saudara dan seorang mukmin..

Aku hanya la seorang.. seorang di lautan manusia yang kita sendiri tak tau lagi.. kedudukan kita di mana di akhirat kelak..

apa yang kita boleh lakukan adalah berdoa, berbuat baik, berbakti pada orang tua, apa-apa yang kita boleh lakukan semampu yang boleh agar perjalanan kita di dunia tidak sia2 dan perjalanan kita di akhirat berbekal.. cukup tak cukup tuh.. wallahualam bisawab.. itu bukan tugas kita menilai tapi Allah..

Aku hanya la seorang... bukan berdua bertiga atau berteman bila di liang lahat nanti..

Diam tandanya setuju???... giler ke ape!!..

2011-11-02T16:46:00.001+08:00

Kadang aku jemu.. muak.. bosan.. betul-betul tak boleh nak berfikir.. daripada berfikir benda-benda yang GERENTI menyakitkan hati dan menggugat perasaan.. baik aku baca novel..novel-novel lama aku pun aku baca jer balik suma.. bukan ape.. memang kena divert my mind away ... kalau tak, boleh botak kepala.. terlalu banyak berfikiran akan buat rambut kita gugur berlebihan..

Aku banyak diam jugak.. bila ada peluang bersuara becok jugak aku ni.. nak kata friendly ada ler.. nak kata pendiam ade jugak.. tengok keadaan laa.. sebab banyak simpan dalam hati, bila dah dapat mic.. apa lagi.. sosek sosek.. chot chet cho chet.. non-stop.. pergghh..!!!

Aku sekarang prefer diam.. entah lah.. kang aku bercakap kang.. aku dikatakan biadab.. tau lah.. dah orang tak suka aku ni.. so apa aku cakap pun.. jadi macam tak betul lahhh.. nak kata aku tak betul.. apa yang aku cakap tu berdasarkan yang norma.. tak de lah nak kata extreme tapi dekat-dekat lah apa yang orang lain pun akan cakap.. so nak kata orang lain pun tak betul kepala otak dorang tu kira melampau la jugak kannn..

Tapi bila aku diam.. bukan bermaksud aku setuju dan terima apa pun yang diperkatakan.. kena tengok logiknya jugak.. tau la.. kita ni ada akal.. for sure kita nak tengok logiknya kan.. dan kita ada hati.. for sure kita akan tengok serasinya kan.. entah la.. wallahualam bisawab.. tak tau aku nak menjawabnya.. bukan aku tak reti.. aku takut .. aku buka mulut jer.. tak pasal-pasal aku kena .. haiii....dunia ni dah nak dekat dah tarikh luputnya kott..

Ni pulak aku dah lalui macam-macam.. aku nak cakap pun susah.. aku tak cakap kang.. dikatakan setuju dan approve apa pun perlakuan ke atas ku.. tak ke macam cari penyakit tuh namanya..

Aku ni dah banyak sangat gelaran disandangkan pada bahu, dahi.. malah kat kepala aku ni... nak kali lali.. setiap kali disebut.. tetap menyayat hati.. susah aku nak gambarkan perasaan aku ... aku boleh kelihatan gembira tapi sebenarnya aku menangis.. aku boleh kelihatan tenang tapi sebenarnya aku memberontak.. aku jugak boleh kelihatan tak peduli tapi sebenarnya aku memang peduli.. tak pe.. aku cuba jugak jadi yang terbaik, da bomb la katakan ... tengok lah.. fiil aku ni pun pandai berubah-rubah.. bergantung kepada keadaan hati, perasaan dan kepala aku pada ketika itu.. aku cuma manusia biasa.. yang tak lari dari kesilapan dan kealpaan..

(^_^)

Haiku - Some thing I like to do..

2011-10-26T19:25:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. been a bit active on FB of late.. and sometimes.. when I had an idea.. i would come up with some short poem or haiku..A few collections may have been lost along the timeline of my life.. but I guess it must touched someone's heart ... as long as it is for a good cause.. I'm gamed!

26 Oct Hate is such an easy word to say.. instead love would be the hardestAnger is such an easy vent.. instead patience would be the hardestWords are such an easy way to flow... instead silence would be the hardest..Alas, the hardest is what people sought ... instead easy is what you get.

25 Oct Fickle minded, be reminded.. Choose wisely, don't be clumsy...Right or not, fear not..Best foot forward, be rewarded!
~ Nurul™. All Rights Reserved.

10 Oct Sabar tuh kan.. mmg mencabar.. dah la jiwa terbakar.. mcm dalam ketuhar.. tapi sabar.. kena byk bersabar.. biar jadi berdebar bila dah dapat khabar... :-)

27 Oct Time flies when you are having FUN... Time stales when you are having RUNT... and Time goes backward when you are having GRUNT.

There is more but I guess it has been awhile since the last time I create some.. else it is a copy and paste from friends and families on quotes or haiku...

It's nothing really.. those are just when I felt like I had to say something and I can't express it pretty well with simple words.. There are things that only you and your heart understood.. (^_^)

2011-10-26T18:46:00.001+08:00

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

[refrain]
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

[refrain]
All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

[bridge]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

Indecisive Really...Come On!!! Make up your mind already!!

2011-10-25T17:18:00.001+08:00

Yea yea.. I know.. therefore I am.. I like to do new things but I'm also worried that the organisation I'm going for failed to take care of me ... possibilities are tremendously large!!..

But both have not dealt with me to be on their payroll so.. both place would need to get used to me.. :-) .. I know I know.. hahaha... still I need to make a decision... between risk management and policy making role.. both are challenging because I will have to work on gaining the confidence and trust of both parties.

Anyways, I have consulted some.. so we will have to see this Thursday what transpires... until then.. 50-50 chances still.. women are sooo fickle minded eh.. hehehehe... ME included!!!

Kelly Clarkson - Mr Know It All...

2011-10-24T16:44:00.003+08:00

Mr know it all
Well ya think you know it all
But ya don't know a thing at all
Ain't it something y'all
When somebody tells you something bout you
Think that they know you more than you do
So you take it down another pill to swallow

Mr bring me down
Well ya like to bring me down don't ya
But I ain't laying down, baby
I ain't going down
Can't nobody tell me how it's gonna be
Nobody gonna make a fool out of me
Baby you should know that I lead not follow

[Chorus]
Oh you think that you know me, know me
That's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely
Cause baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

You ain't got the right to tell me
When and where to go, no right to tell me
Acting like you own me lately
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

Mr play your games
Only got yourself to blame
When you want me back again
But I ain't falling back again
Cause I'm living my truth without your lies
Let's be clear baby this is goodbye
I ain't coming back tomorrow

[Chorus]
Oh you think that you know me, know me
That's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely
Cause baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

You ain't got the right to tell me
When and where to go, no right to tell me
Acting like you own me lately
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

[Bridge]
So what, you've got the world at your feet
And you know everything about everything
But you don't
You still think I'm coming back but baby you'll see

[Chorus]
Oh you think that you know me, know me
That's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely
Cause baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

You ain't got the right to tell me
When and where to go, no right to tell me
Acting like you own me lately
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

Mr know it all
Well ya think you know it all
But ya don't know a thing at all
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

Siapa la Aku untuk Merasa Kecewa...

2011-10-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

Kecewa itu Sakit tau... bukan macam kena gigit semut pun.. lipas lagi la.. ni macam kena gigit dinasour.. susah nak baik.. tapi boleh kot bila iman kita kuat.. bila kita sentiasa ingat Allah itu sayangNya berlebih-lebih kat kita.. cewah.. macam senang jer buatnya tu kan.. hehehe...Cessss

Tu lahh.. orang dah kata.. jangan jang.. degil jugak.. hahaha.. dah memang lumrah kita sebagai hamba Allah yang senantiasa ingin mencari bahagia itu.. definisi kita berbeza-beza ape.. ingat sama meh.. tak de la..hehehe.. kalau sama.. waaaa.. senang jer nak cari ooo.. pusing-pusing dua tiga kali .. dah jumpa.. hahaha.. alangkah bahagianya kita bila itu terjadi..

Aku tau orang tak suka tengok aku kecewa.. dorang sayang kat aku.. tapi kan.. lagi dorang berusaha tak kecewakan aku.. lagi senang dorang kecewakan aku tau.. entah kenapa macam tu.. pelik kan?

Hari ni aku betul-betul hilang tumpuan.. tengok lah.. ada kerja ni.. tapi layan blog aku yang macam sampah ni jugak.. hehehe... Ni la tempat aku dump extra baggage... berat siottt.. ingat tadi nak telan jer.. tapi perut aku tak muat la wei.. oversize and overweight...cewah..

Pikir-pikir kan.. betul jugak kawan aku cakap.. sabar itu... ganjarannya hebat.. kadang lambat kadang cepat.. insyaAllah.. aku cuba.. kecewa tak lah jugak.. boleh la tahan.. tunggu dia meletup jer lah.. tapi tau abang kita tak suka.. kan kan kan.. hehehehe..

Kekurangan Ku Beribu-ribu Tan Hendaknya...

2011-10-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hoi..Sial!!.. Babi!! Anak Haram!! Suka lah ya buat orang .. dah tau orang tak suka.. buat jugak!!.. tak paham bahasa ke hah!!.. Tu lah.. buat baik kat dia pun tak guna!!.. memang sial!!.. Babi!! Anak Haram!!... Memang tak guna buat baik kat awak ni!!.. Ko ingat aku ni kuli engko nak tunggu-tunggu??!!!

Best tak ayat-ayat kat atas tuh? Aku rasa time tuh memang betul apa yang diperkatakan.. memang silap aku.. sebab terlalu melayan kerja.. aku lupa yang aku tak boleh lambat.. sebab bukan aku yang drive..sumpah aku tak sengaja. Apa nak buat, aku memang silap.. silap langkah, sila perbuatan.

Aku memang akui.. aku banyak kelemahan. Aku ni kadang melayan orang, tolong orang, buat kerja, main game, semua aku buat selalu buat orang marah. Kekurangan aku kalau aku minta orang senaraikan mungkin boleh buat Procedure Manual. Tebal.

Bila kekurangan aku tu semua aku tompokkan kat satu tempat.. mak ai.. mau bertan-tan lori datang buat dumping ground sebab aku tau.. aku ni tak ada la sebaik mana, secantik mana, tak pandai, tak segalanya. Tu sebab aku selalu kena maki, kena caci, kena hina, kena marah. Aku sedar tu.. aku tahu.. tapi cam mana aku nak kurangkan kekurangan aku ni aku pun tak tau. Aku dah mati akal..

Sekarang ni aku serahkan kepada Allah jer lah.. kotnya Allah nampak kelebihan aku ni, kecantikan aku, kebaikhatian aku ke, entahlah.. bila aku telah buat orang marah aku macam tu sekali.. aku jadi sangsi. Benar kah aku ni ada kelebihan??

Setakat aku pandai bahasa English.. orang tak heran lah.. pernah jugak sorang mamat dutch ni kata aku ni strategic thinker??? aku rasa dia gurau jer.. hahaha.. memang masa tuh mekar lah skit hati ni.. tapi kejap jer lah.. tak boleh lama-lama nanti riak siut.. Nak kata aku tolong orang? ala.. aku tolong sikit jer.. bukannya besar pun, setakat yang aku boleh dan mampu. Tu yang buat aku sedar, aku ni memang tak de lah hebat sangat.. cewah.. nak kata hebat pun tak berani.. cuma masih bernasib baik.. bersyukur lah aku tak merempat, masih ada bumbung atas kepala, ada kudrat yang agak sempurna untuk aku bergerak, buat kerja.

Sejak aku buat orang marah-marah sampai tahap macam tu, hari ni aku masih terasa... amat terasa sebab I did it again and again and again.. Tak kira kecik ke besar ke... sejak dari hari tu sampai ke hari ini aku buat orang meluat, menyampah dan rimas.. Aisey.. aku pun tak tahu nak buat lagu mana lagi.. senyap jer.. redha jer yang orang rasa macam tu.. agaknya tengok muka aku pun dah menyampah, tak suka dan meluat. Ya lah.. nengok muka aku pun aku dah buat orang automatik merasa marah meluap-luap lepas tu cakap itu ini.. aku rasa memang suda tahap serius bin parah.. aku rasa aku patut kaji balik diri aku ni.. aku yang penuh dengan kekurangan ni.. aku kena berdoa ngan Allah .. tunjukkan jalan bagaimana nak melebihkan kelebihan aku ni..

Aku merancang macam-macam dah sekarang. Aku nak kena mengaji balik, buat macam aku buat dulu. Aku dulu rajin. Mungkin sebab aku dah jadi malas, Allah uji aku nak ingatkan aku. Ya .. aku rasa itu kot.

Haiii.. tang mana aku nak buat ni.. beribu-ribu tan aku kena kurangkan tuh.. kekurangan yang begitu ketara sebab kekurangan aku mengundang amarah orang ... aku tengah berfikir nih.. cam mana nak buat....

The Wind is Blowing...

2011-10-04T23:16:00.003+08:00

changing courses... blowing hard on the other direction.. east? west? I don't know.. No one can stop the wind ...

I will be changing course.. what I have now.. I will have to leave it all behind.. start clean slate with a new place, a new environment and a new wind..

I have consulted small number.. very small number of close nitty friends and love ones.. I just want to hear them out. Their thoughts and argument are highly valued. However, in the end... I would have to decide still. The final decision is still me.

Well, a short talk today.. had made me realized that, is it something that you are capable of doing? Yes it is. So? what's so hard to decide? True enough.. I can always love what I do right now.. but still.. it is something that I am not really familiar with but yes, have used all my acquired skills to learn and make it happen.. well almost. Coz I got a 3rd degree from my VP today on some docs. I know he is trying to teach us but, time is just not on our side right now.

I have like soooo many things to clear and make good of... so that I can do a proper handover. I have like tonssssss of files to make good of too.. hard copy!!! never like to print these unless it is absolutely necessary or I get to print color.. hehehe

I felt the wind on my face and telling me that this is it!.. You are at the cross road, think carefully on which way you wanna go. I know that ... Allah knows that.. everyone knows that.. but I just want to have more time to think it through... yea right.. more time.. hehehe.. more time to change my mind right? hehehe

Any how, it has been decided, Friday would be the day. So InsyaAllah it would be ok. Right now, I want to go to sleep. Sleep on it ... funny phrase. :-) .. Was is the money factor, yes a bit, and it is a permanent positiion. So, this is like telling me that we can see your worth and we are not going to resort to a tempt arrangement. I felt .. honored. And they some what facilities that extended to my children. Thank you Allah, then I can breath easier because I have medical benefit once more. Man, it has been a full one year and a half that I hadn't had that kind of feeling. Normal cough took me at least 3 months to clear!!! Thank you Allah.. Alhamdullilah.

I hope that everything would be better. I am not going to take it lightly that everything will run smooth but I will have to challenge it head on. face fear or uncertainties head on. I'm gamed!!!.. hehehe.. I'm going to miss using that phrase on my VP and colleagues. Americans!!!!

I used to have more of a light british accent but i think it has completely gone... gone with the wind!!!.. hehehehe... The wind of change is blowing somehow .. without me realizing that.. I'm riding it!!!

Teru teru bozu... m(^_^)m

Allah Mempermudahkan...

2011-09-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

Allah has always had a huge impact on my life.

When I was growing up... when I was busy trying to prove myself over and over again to people just because I came from a broken home.. when I was struggling establishing who I really am back then.. what do I really want to do?.. When I was in Uni.. when I lost my scholarship.. when I had to work ... when I decided to leave KL.. until now.. I would always have a dialogue with Allah.. monologue with myself actually but I was actually trying to make sense of it all.. through talking to Allah.. literally.

I always had this feeling that Allah will always show me the way.. although it may not be the route I wanted to take but I'm sure there is some life lessons that Allah wanted me to learn, experience and be wiser..

When I lost my Dad to heart attack, I was regretting how I have not been spending more time with him. But when I was listening to "If I Die Young" sang by The Band Perry, I some what understood. My dad had all the time he had been allocated by Allah. It was simply times up. It would be the same for us all. Allah has given and allocated the time needed for us. It would never be enough if we keep on postponing of all the things we have planned to do. We just need to do it coz we might be running out of time too.

I am here on Earth for a purpose, I know of it, all it is left is... TO DO IT.

No doubt those things that we should be doing? well, those. Allah would also make it easy for it to do. And Allah also knows that when we are in a ditch, he will give us some time to get back up again.. Allah knows exactly the amount time we need to overcome something or someone.

My feelings, they don't matter that much but I know it matter so much to Allah. Remembering Allah, my parents, my siblings and love ones... it all are just one big happy feelings. We just had to make sure we thought of them with happy thoughts, positive vibes and feels thankful on how they have made you to what you are today.

You are what you are but you are what you can become. You can become evil if you want to but you can be a saint when you want it so badly. They question would be, do you have enough time to change?

I for once had that in mind. I do not foresee that I have a lot of time. I have always felt that I will be one of those people that will leave this earth while I am still young, or considered young.. hehehe..

Don't ask me why, but I guess that was why I kept on doing so many things till that people say I have become a walking dictionary of almost everything. I have always been curious of my abilities, now that I have realized that perhaps, my time would be up soon enough. When I have like nothing else to do but pray, love and get close to Allah.

When Allah make it easy for me to get the extra Gs for what I have planned for next year, I know I would be closer to the day that I have to leave... much sooner.. wallahualam.. I want to get my mum to Umrah, Upah Haji for my Dad and myself. This is what I wanted to do right now. Oh and finished off my Masters. Heck, it's taking longer that I have expected but hey, I'm sure I can managed that. I WILL TRY MY BEST...

Hehehe.. so yes, thank you Allah for the blessing and everything that you have given me. Amin..

Sayangku...

2011-09-26T10:02:00.002+08:00

By June Leloo

Sayangku,

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu cemburu,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Itu perasaan yang paling layak,

Daripada isteri yang besar cintanya,

Cemburumu bukan kekurangan,

Ia sifat orang beriman ,

Fitrah yang Allah berikan di dunia,

Dan bakal Allah hilangkan di syurga .

Sayangku,

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu tamak,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Betapa dirimu dambakan kedudukan akhirat,

Menjaga agamamu daripada terfitnah ,

Dirimu sebenarnya sangat pemurah,

Sanggup menggadaikan keseluruhan milikmu,

Demi hidup tenang di samping Tuhanmu.

Sayangku,

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu tidak sanggup berkongsi,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Betapa dirimu terlalu banyak memberi,

Berkongsi suamimu dengan perjuangannya,

Hingga masa untukmu hanyalah bersisa senja,

Meredhai suamimu berkongsi kepakaran,

Kau didik anaknya dalam kepayahan,

Berkongsi suamimu dengan masyarakat,

Hingga tugas-tugas dakwah tidak tergugat,

Pengorbananmu mulia dan terhormat.

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu sensitif,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Betapa terpujinya sensitivitimu,

Kecaknaan sifat orang beriman,

Itu lambang lembutnya perasaan,

Simbolik jiwamu yang penyayang,

Anugerah kewanitaan,

Yang menjadikanmu istimewa,

Sebagai isteri dan ibu.

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu tidak positif,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Betapa positifnya dirimu,

Ketika memilih MENCEGAH SEBELUM MERAWAT,

Itu tanda akalmu bijak membuat nilaian,

Itu tanda kau rasional membuat pilihan,

Lambang sifatmu yang berhati-hati,

Lahir dari kecelikan mata hati.

Sayangku,

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu menolak hukum Tuhan,

Tak mengapa, Sayang

Kerana Allah tahu,

Kau menjelaskan dan menegakkan hukum Tuhan,

Sebagaimana yang difahami oleh jumhur ulama,

Monogami adalah sunnah dan asal di sisi syarak,

Poligami itu cuma rukhsah,

Untuk merawat masalah-masalah tertentu,

Seperti isteri gila, sakit dan tidak bernafsu,

Rukhsah tidak diambil sewenang-wenangnya,

Apatah lagi sekadar menjamu nafsu,

Jelaskan sudut pandang,

Islam tidak menjadikan poligami pilihan utama,

Agar terbela Islam dari fitnah musuhnya.

Sayangku,

Ketika mereka mengatakanmu menolak sunnah,

Tak mengapa, Sayang,

Kerana Allah tahu,

Kau mencintai dan menegakkan sunnah,

Kau bersama fikrah jumhur ulama’,

Hukum asal poligami cuma harus dan bukannnya sunnah,

Islam mengawalnya dengan ketat dan payah,

Apabila mensyaratkan ‘adil’, syarat yang susah,

Agar keluargamu tenang dalam mawaddah warahmah.

Sayangku,

Biarlah mereka asyik menjelikkan,

Kita balas dengan meraikan,

Biarlah mereka membuat pilihan,

Tenanglah dengan pilihan kita,

Apa yang penting,

Kita tidak menanggung pilihan mereka,

Dan kita bahagia dengan pilihan kita,

Hidup ini sekejap cuma,

Moga kita semua mudah ke syurga,

Bidadari dan pemuda kacak (wildan) menanti di sana,

Dirimu tetap teristimewa,

Teruskan sayangku…

Sebarkanlah bahagia.

What a day!!

2011-09-22T19:10:00.000+08:00

First thing first... I had to send lots of emails .. work related really but it sure is time consuming..arghh..

Then I had to go to another place in Subang to be the MC. I was kind of nervous because it has been awhile and the moment I walked in, I was receiving a bit of negative vibes from that one person. The rest was ok.. Y was the best!!.. She is so cool and collect.. I rarely see her fluster or panic.. such a great event manager...I may forget small-small things but there are small things or gesture that I do noticed... This person only handed out ONE bottle of mineral water to Y and none for me!!.. Bingo.. "I dont like you" signs all over.. but as always.. I kept quiet and just IGNORE or try to IGNORE those things.. ehehehe.. I know I should not judge people the way I am being judged..I attempted to ask Y if she asked the other girls about the MC job... she wasn't paying attention and I didn't pursue that question coz I can see that she is busy.. I don't want to add on this thing on her shoulder.. she had enough things on her plate at the event already.

So, it went well but when I wrongly announced to the crowd on one of the items in the agenda.. that was where everything just went DOWNHILL for me.. oh MANNNN... I was looking for Y for help!!.. shuck... so got that one out of the way.. and the next one.. I just want to finish that off fairly quickly!!.. again a mistakes..should have taken a breather there..

So .. I forgot to thank the Dignitary, the most important guy and stammered all the way coz in my rush to get all over and done with, I left my text script that Y prepared on the podium off the stage!!!...

After getting off the stage, I rushed to make an apology to the important guy and just rush to see Y and say sorry to her too.. I asked her to scold me so that I can feel good again.. I really need a good scolding from the mistakes I made coz, because of me, Y had to write an official apology letter to the hotel too!

To top it up, in commemorating my mistakes, I sent to Y, she got upset and thought I was trying to say that it was her script and list were screwed up.. oh boy.. I am such a lousy friend and colleague aren't I? sigh

I do not meant that at all. I was just sharing my mistakes and things we can do better.. together.. i just I did it the wrong way. Yup, it's all my fault.

Now I have potentially hurt a friend's feeling and I don't think she would forgive me for that because you know female.. I'm a female.. so we are emotional lot..

So that's my day.. no pretty but sure is a day to remember!!!...Because it could be the day that I lost a dear friend...

A Message Sent is a Message Sent...

2011-09-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

Things were not looking so good but hey, at least I'm still alive and well, not so much of kicking going on but good enough to kick some hard err.. behinds..

Work.. well, that's piling up like small hills.. soon to be a mountain of stuffs.. Got an meeting coming up and being an MC of the day.. wow.. its moving fairly fast.. wayyyy fast.. and it keeps me very much occupied and less thinking of other stuffs...

Life.. haven't been easy coz ..well.. some of you my dearest have been ignoring me so.. what's up with that? Ok, will not speculate as much coz you know best what's going on over that side of the fence...

My precious.. well one is down with asthma and two are ok although will potentially be in the same circle once my maid decided not to come back... no more maid.. i have had enough of drama on this part of the bargain...

Friends.. now they are ok but a bit upset coz I haven't been actively involved in any of their rendezvous and stuffs.. well, sorry guys.. been splitting myself 3 or 5 times more these days.. as long as I'm breathing.. I'm here for you..

Health has not been that good... I had a few hiccups but hey, sleeps seems to be helping much.. nasty headaches, allergies, knees, tummy ache, you name it.. those are my usuals... of course medication are scarce coz I haven't found a fairly good GP that gives me the RIGHT drugs for the RIGHT reasons.. all are self-administered thus far.. cheaper too.. Just to share, had a dear friend of my stung by jelly fish, his daughter too... and the scary part was, they didn't even go and see a doctor!!!... SCARY!!.. I had him promised to go and see a doctor next morning coz it was way too late to see any doctor since its over 11pm.. anyway, some aged old remedy that my mum and my family used to do.. some salt, a bit of water and cold talcum (bedak sejuk) .. heck I don't have the english name for this but cold talcum should do it.. hehehe... mix them all together to make a paste and just apply on the stung areas... it does not heal but it would make the pain less .. ahh.. painful... also, he went out to have a drink.. so I said, hey dude.. drink cold lime to just get the body temperature to subside a bit.. usually when you are stung, excruciating pain only happens in the first few seconds or minutes.. but the agony of feeling the poison going thru your bloodstream? well that's something else. Trust me... next time you got stung, GOT SEE THE DOCTOR. So next morning, both of them got injections. See? that wasn't so bad, was it?

Anyway..it's cold now.. some times, I can't even stand the standing fans.. I have to switch them off so that I don't feel like its my time to "go"... chills started from the feet and up... I've also felt that I'm going to die young..

Hey.. I've got this song in my head and here is the edited version I had on my facebook...

If I die young, bury me in kapan
Lay me down facing the Qiblat
Sink me in the tanah kubur
Send me away with Al-Fatihah...

Well, this is an updated version of the one that I had on my FB.. wish I can go for Umrah and Hajj... InsyaAllah.. if I don't it's still okay ...

A sharp knife for a short life
Well, I've had just enough time...

These lyrics from the song by The Band Perry are just nailed on ...

(^_^)

Escape

2011-09-13T05:45:00.000+08:00

I see the door
inviting me to walk out
or was it for me to walk in?

I see the grass
Inviting me to step out
or was it for me to step in?

I see the clouds above
Inviting me to free myself
or was it for me to free someone else?

But when I see the light
that shine so bright in your eyes
Inviting me to embrace it
or was it for me to escape?

ROriginal Inc copyrights reserved Sept 2011.

If I Die Young ...

2011-09-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

...bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song...

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh
The sharp knife of a short life Well, I've had just enough time
So put on your best, boys And I'll wear my pearls

Copied from MetroLyrics.com

New mission...

2011-09-07T09:53:00.000+08:00

I don't know how.. and I don't know whether that is what I should decide but I have to decide ..

Whatever happens, it happens as Allah intended. What I can do is to try to see the hikmah behind it all.

Now that I have some form of direction, I would be able to go or move forward one step at a time.

InsyaAllah...all will end well and with hikmah.

HatiKu Yang Pergi...

2011-09-06T09:16:00.000+08:00

Wahai Hati..
Sakitmu menggugat tidurku
Getarmu mencelik mataku
Resah gelisah gundah gulana...

Wahai Hati
Saratmu penuh merindu
Menyuburkan mata menyuburkan minda
Teringat dan teringat dengan syahdu

Wahai Hati
Tak ku dapat membendung
Tak ku dapat menyua
Dia telah menjauh

Wahai Hati
Di kala dikau gumbira
Di kala dikau terubat
Dia telah berubah

Namun..
Jangan dikau takut Ya Hati
Kerana Allah lebih mengerti
Sakitnya kini mungkin membawa erti
Bahwa hati mu kini tersisih
Kembali lah
Kembali menyumbang kasih
kepada mereka di sisi

Mereka lah intan
Mereka lah permata
Mereka lah nilam pengganti hatiku yang telah pergi..

PermataKu kini Peminat Animax

2011-08-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

Silap daaa.. tapi tak pe.. ok jugak sebb permataku suka plak dengar bahasa jepun dia.. dia kata bila letak melayu or english jadi pelik.. apa yg pelik pun tak tau.. macam la dorang tu paham bahasa jepun.. hahahaha

Kira kena bersyukur la dorang dapat tengok astro lagi.. kira dorang ni memang fortunate children.. soon after project charity aku ok.. nak bawak dorang skali.. biar diorang terbuka mata hati tu sikit.. how they should always be thankful to Allah tak kira apa pun keadaan dorang..

Syukur la dapat iktibar dari one of walls in Facebook.. memang eye opener.

Anyway.. Animax ada macam kartun teenage dan adult.. so memang tapis jugak apa yg dorang tengok.. but each time yg adult punya ada.. dorang tukar channel .. good good..

Permataku pandai dah nyanyi2 OST animax ni.. haii.. nak kena suruh dia belajar mengaji dengan lebih baik.. kang animax ok.. mengaji tak ok... haiii..

(^-^)

Tak lama lagi RAYA...

2011-08-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

Puasa ni kan tak semestinya berkenaan lapar dan dahaga.. aku rasa keseluruhannya juga.. aku ni tak de la pandai sangat.. tapi boleh laa..masih lagi belajar setakat mana yang boleh..

Aku rasa hati kita ni kan macam ruang library.. macam2 ada.. dari yg crita dongeng sampai la crita yang menyayat hati.. kadang boleh buat buku dua tiga buah.. dia banyak macam cerita dan pengalaman yang kadang terus terkubur di dalam hati ni.

Kita tak sampai hati untuk membuat hati orang lain sakit, tapi kadang kita bukannya pandai control. Allah yang lebih tahu sebab dia yang control. Kita ni cuma hambaNya.

Apa pun Allah letak dalam hati kita, kita rasa semuanya. Agaknya Allah ingin menguji tindakan kita. Samada kita ni kuat, beriman, ikhlas, takut dengan Allah, etc. Buat ke tak buat.. itu lagi satu persoalannya.

Naluri manusia, mana yang boleh lawan. Ade kot tapi tak ramai.. Masa puasa ni lagi.. hmm.. lagi mencabar.. biasanya orang buat jugak tuuu... nak buat macam mana kan.. naluri la katakan.

Tak lama lagi Raya.. ramai la akan meraikannya termasuk aku sekali. Tetapi aku mungkin akan puasa ganti dan puasa enam setelah puasa gantiku selesai. Tahun sudah pun aku ganti awal-awal. Tau la kan kita ni manusia.. dah lah suka tangguh, tak tahan dugaan pun satu jugak.. hehehe..

Untuk itu, aku nak ucapkan selamat menyambut aidil fitri dan selagi ada hayat serta kesempatan, kita akan bertemu lagi, InsyaAllah.

PESANAN BUAT SUAMI - Oleh Dato’ Dr Hj Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah

2011-08-19T11:45:00.001+08:00

Salam semua... ni dapat dari kawan.. dia share.. so aku pun share la kat sini... kotnya berbaloi untuk dibaca dan diamalkan.. InsyaAllah dapat la juga pahala walaupun tidak menjamin entri ke syurga... Hanya Allah sahaja yang dapat menjawab soalan itu...wallahualam

1. Selalu menghargai usaha dan penat-lelah isteri, terutama isteri yang bekerja dan sama-sama terpaksa menanggung hutang suami.

2. Bila isteri bercakap, pandanglah mukanya dan buka telinga luas-luas. Biar apa yang dikatakannya masuk telinga kanan dan tersumbat di telinga kiri. Sambil tu otak suami kenalah memproses informasi yang diterima daripada isteri dengan bijak serta prihatin.

3. Jangan sekali-kali membandingkan masakan isteri atau cara isteri menghias rumah dengan mak anda kecuali masakan/cara menghias isteri anda lebih baik dan canggih dari emak anda..

4. Jangan demand sex sekiranya isteri tak ada mood atau letih. Agama suruh kahwin bukan semata-mata untuk penuhi nafsu syahwat saja.

5. Kalau pasangan dah ada anak, sama-samalah menjaga anak. Benih dari awak juga.. Ada suami, isteri sedang makan disuruh cebok kencing n berak anak sedangkan suami duduk tersandar kekenyangan macam maharaja.

6. Jangan sekali-kali duduk tersandar depan TV atau relax-relax sedangkan isteri bila balik dari kerja, buka saja kasut terus masuk dapur, memasak, mengemas, membasuh, kejar anak dsbnya. Berbulu mata dan sayu hati isteri bila kami tak cukup tangan nak menguruskan rumahtangga sedangkan suami lepas tangan.

7. Sekiranya suami makan dahulu, tinggalkan sedikit lauk utk isteri. Jangan bedal semua sampai turn isteri yang tinggal cuma ekor ikan sekerat, janggut sotong dan ekor taugeh.

8. Kalau nak ajak member bertandang ke rumah, beritau isteri dulu, kalau boleh sehari-dua in advance. Jadi bolehlah dia memasak yang best-best dan mengemas rumah cantik-cantik. Bayangkan perasaan isteri kalau tetamu datang terpacak sedangkan kain-baju masih berlonggok belum sempat dilipat, permainan anak masih berselerak dan isteri cuma masak mi maggi saja.

9. Jangan sekali-kali menyakat isteri tentang saiz badannya yang semakin sihat atau semakin melidi. Tengok body sendiri dalam cermin dulu.

10. Jangan kentut depan isteri. Masa bercinta dulu kenapa boleh control kentut?

11. Hormatilah ibu-bapa dan kaum keluarga isteri walaupun anda cuma main wayang, bodek mereka masa nak mengurat isteri anda dulu. Jangan sekali mencaci mereka walaupun secara bergurau.

12. Jangan kedekut dengan isteri serta keperluan rumahtangga.

13. Jagalah maruah anda sebagai suami dan lelaki. Selagi boleh, jangan bebankan isteri dengan masaalah kewangan anda. Selalunya perempuan ni, semakin suami “degil” tak nak minta pertolongan, selagi itulah dia rela nak tolong.

14. Jangan bersepah dan bersikap pengotor. Dah buka baju, letakkan dalam bakul baju kotor, dah guna cungkil gigi, buanglah dalam bakul sampah, bila dah guna ubat gigi bubuh balik penutupnya, dah ambil sesuatu barang simpan balik ditempat asal, dah berak flush. Susah sangat ke nak buat macam tu? Semua nak kena ajar ke?

15. Rajin-rajinlah bertanya isteri kalau dia perlukan bantuan anda dengan kerja rumah/menjaga anak. Tapi jangan tanya dua tahun sekali. Jangan tunjuk rajin bila ada tetamu di rumah saja.

16. Hormatilah isteri anda sebagaimana anda mahu dihormati. Isteri pun manusia. Allah berikan banyak keistimewaan kepada para isteri tapi diputar-belitkan tafsirannya oleh orang lelaki untuk kepentingan diri sendiri.

17.. Jangan main kayu tiga dengan perempuan lain. Main lain lagi tak boleh. Kalau isteri awak yang buat, tentu awak tak boleh tolerate, jadi mengapa isteri awak kena tolerate kalau awak buat?

18. Kalau tak menyukai sikap atau perbuatan isteri, tegurlah secara baik, jangan asyik nak menengking aja. Kalau awak sakit nak mati nanti, siapa yang kena jaga awak? Bai jual roti? Apek jual sayur? Jiran sebelah rumah awak?

19. Kalau isteri nampak tak sihat, cepat-cepatlah bawa jumpa doktor. Tunjuklah anda mengambil berat tentang dirinya.

20. Berbincanglah dengan isteri sebelum sesuatu keputusan dibuat. Walaupun suami megah ada kuasa veto, tak jadi bapok kalau pendapat isteri diambil kira. Pokok pangkalnya ialah timbangrasa dan saling menghargai. Cubalah ketepikan ego yang keterlaluan. Bukannya laku bila dah mati nanti.

21. Dalami agama dan bimbinglah anak isteri dengan ikhlas seperti yang dituntut agama. Ingat, kalau seorang suami masuk syurga, besar kemungkinan isteri pun masuk syurga. Kalau suami masuk neraka belum tentu isteri juga masuk neraka. Kalau isteri masuk neraka, besar kemungkinan suami juga masuk NERAKA tapi kalau isteri masuk syurga belum tentu suami pun masuk syurga.Ini bukan rekaan saya tapi saya dengar dari seorang ustaz.

22. Berusahalah dengan ikhlas untuk mempertahankan keharmonian rumahtangga. Jangan buat apa yang isteri tak suka. Percayalah, kalau suami buat baik sekali dengan isteri, isteri balas sepuluh kali.

23. Jangan buat donno kalau isteri merajuk atau berkecil hati. Kalau perlu minta maaf, minta maaf, kalau perlu dipujuk, pujuk. Hati orang pompuan ni sensitif. Kalau kami rasa suami tak ambil kisah, perasaan bagai dihiris-hiris. Perkara yang dipandang remeh oleh suami boleh menjadi kanser kepada isteri. Kepada para suami khususnya dan kaum lelaki amnya, janganlah dianggap masalah hati dan perasaan orang perempuan ni enteng sahaja.
Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Dan ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah mengetahui apa yang didalam hatimu, sebab itu berhati-hatilah dengan Tuhan”

Ramadhan...

2011-08-01T10:38:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Ramadhan dah tiba.. hari ni pun dah hari pertama puasa ... boleh la tahan.. tapi macam biasa aku dah siap sedia pakai baju 2-3 lapis.. sebab ofis aku sejuk macam freezer.. brrrrr... challenging bila posa ni time sejuk2 mcm ni sebab mudah mengantuk..

Boss dah kata.. nak balik awal, make sure mai awal.. lepas tu nak kuar awal tak pa.. syukur la dapat boss yg understanding dan happening.. hehehe..

Durian kat umah dia tak amik lagi.. haii... dia kata dia tak paksa tapi kalau bleh mai amik LAGI bagus.. hehehe.. dia kata dia tak larat dah nak makan ni.. hehehe

walaupun aku tak makan durian.. aku tau aku bleh buat supaya orang lain bleh makan.. hehehe.. apa lagi.. sama de dia jadik tempoyak atau aku goreng ler.. ahaaa.. sapa tak pernah makan goreng punya style.. hehehe.. mau rasa.. meh mai datang umah... hehehe

Apsal aku ceria pagi2 buta time2 posa ni.. crita pasal makanan lak tu..

tak de pe.. hati mau senang.. so sendiri la kena senangkan ati ni.. nak sedih2 ke, nak marah2 ke.. apa jugak yang aku dapat kan... Allah ada.. Dia kuasa segala kuasa.. Dia yg tentukan segala sesuatu.. kita sebagai hambaNya.. hanya dapat berdoa dan berdoa dan berdoa..

Semalam aku dah buatkan ayam golek dah... My haiqal awal-awal dah nak rasa.. siap kata.. dia blum makan nasi lagi ari ni.. ish ish.. ok.. so.. siap masak tu satu potong tu dia makan ngan roti.. nasi sejuk dalam peti ais.. makan masa lagi tu nak panaskan.. My haiqal dah lapar you.. so cannot wait .. :-)

Ramadhan taun ini akan lebih challenging... betul tak?.. byk kena pikir.. kena consider.. Semoga Allah menunjukkan jalan yg benar pada mereka-mereka (termasuk diri aku ni) yg putus2 berdoa...

AMIN.. Semoga Allah makbulkan doaku...Wallahualam

Hatiku Milikmu – Nera AF9

2011-07-26T10:08:00.000+08:00

Pernahkah engkau hargai cintaku yang sejati
Pernahkah engkau mengertikan diriku ini
Betapa hebatnya cintamu, memberiku sejuta pilu
Betapa agungnya asmaramu, membuatku terpaku

Disisimu ku terdiam seribu bahasa
Dihatiku bergetar sejuta rasa
Namun sukar untuk aku meluahkan ku cinta padamu

Nafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimu
Terasa pantas degupan jantungku
Mungkinkah hatiku milikmu jua
Ku sayang padamu

Kan ku abadikan dikau
Sewaktu kenangan yang manis
Yang tak mungkin aku lupa
Untuk selamanya

Kanku coretkan kenanganmu
Dalam sanubariku ini
Agar jadi yang terindah
Di dalam hidupku ini

Disisimu ku terdiam seribu bahasa
Dihatiku bergetar sejuta rasa
Namun sukar untuk aku meluahkan ku cinta padamu

Nafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimu
Terasa pantas degupan jantungku
Mungkinkah hatiku milikmu jua
Sayang padamu

Bagai bahtera dilanda badai
Gelora cinta mengoncang jiwaku
Berombak mencari daratan yang damai
Oh Cintaku

Disisimu ku terdiam seribu bahasa
Dihatiku bergetar sejuta rasa
Namun sukar untuk aku meluahkan cinta padamu

Nafasku terhenti bila melihat dirimu
Terasa pantas degupan jantungku ini
Mungkinkah hatiku milikmu jua
Sayang padamu

Kanku coretkan kenangananmu
Dalam sanubariku ini
Agar jadi yang terindah
Di dalam hidupku ini

Gumbira di Hati Hanya Allah saja yg Memahami..

2011-07-26T10:05:00.000+08:00

Sukar untuk mengambarkan dengan kata-kata..
Hanya ekspresi wajah saja yang mungkin dapat mempaparkan perasaan di hati..
Begitu terasa dekat di hati, melonjat bermain dengan kata-kata hati.. merdu..
Hanya Allah saja yang memahaminya..
Mungkin ini adalah sementara namun bahagianya terasa sehingga ke lubuk hati yg mendalam...
Engkau di sana.. lihatlah bertapa engkau mewarnai, membuatnya berlagu dan berdansa...
Yang terbaikkk... (^_^).. pernah kualami..

Hati Tertanam Duri Berlapik Racun Berbunga Kebohongan...

2011-07-18T15:51:00.000+08:00

Dah seminggu lebih aku terasa seperti sesuatu yg besar, penting, buruk.. kira bad news.. akan melanda ku lagi..

Ternyata segalanya seperti yang firasat ku merasa merendam menghayati..

Tak sangka peristiwa perit akan berulang lagi.. bak seperti ulang tayang di kaca tv...

Salah ku lagi.. sial ku lagi.. babi ku lagi.. kadang walau dah biasa.. tapi masih berduri, beracun dan berdarah..mengores, menusuk dalam hati yg baru tumbuhnya percaya itu, sayang itu dan cinta itu..

Apakan daya... keegoan, kedegilan dan kebencian masih menguasai pelakunya.. masih belum terlunas perasaan dendam nya... aku yg memang didendam kesumat olehnya... tiddak akan terlepas ...

Mungkin ini la ujian Allah pada aku, untuk aku .. membuat ku merasa cahaya di hujung terowong sepi dan sunyi serta menyeksakan ini.. semakin malap.. semakin menjauh.. semakin hilang...

Aku salah perkiraan... aku semakin disisihkan.. sudah lama aku disisihkan.. sejak Aug 2008 peristiwa yg mengegarkan tiang agamaku, sayangku dan kepercayaanku.

Mungkin sudah tiba masanya untuk aku kembali kepada Mu ya Allah.. sambutlah aku seadanya.. tempatkan la aku sewajarnya... atau tunjukkan aku kebenarannya.. suluhkan aku jalan yg sebenarnya.. berikan aku kekuatan dan kesabaran.. kerana keduanya telah rapuh dan semakin sirna ditelan kejahatan hati..

HambaMu yg Terpinggir...

Fighting the bad attitudes of other people

2011-07-06T16:45:00.002+08:00

I was trying to find something to motivates me when dealing with people with bad attitudes.. so I googled and got this.. check it out!!

Fighting the bad attitudes of other people

No matter how good an attitude you develop for yourself, you don't live in a vacuum. All around you are people who have negative attitudes towards life.

There's really nothing you can do about it. Just as how you are going to find bad drivers, no matter what road you take, you're going to find people who have an unenlightened view of life.

The key is not letting people pull you down to their level.

Here are six simple rules you can use to deal with people with horrible attitudes.

1. Stay responsible for your own attitude.
You are always responsible for your own attitude, no matter what outside stimulus you may encounter. Once you decide that, it's suddenly easier to keep positive. Troubles may come, and troubles may go; nasty people may come, and nasty people may go; your attitude can stay positive, no matter what happens.

An easy phrase to use to keep yourself on track by is the famous one used by Alexander Haig, who was secretary of state at the time Ronald Reagan was shot. Haig told reporters, "I'm in charge here." Haig wasn't really in charge, and he didn't last long in the Reagan White House, but the phrase is a good one. "I'm in charge here" means you're ultimately responsible.

2. Realize you don't usually know what's going on with people.
It could be that person has a troubled child, a sick spouse, financial troubles, elderly parents, job woes, no friends, health challenges, car problems, or hemorrhoids. You just don't know what's going on, and you shouldn't be judging them. If they're always nasty, perhaps that's the way they get what they want. They haven't tried any other method.
Steven Covey has a favorite phrase: "first seek to understand, then seek to be understood." Maybe you could give them a hand, if you learn to understand them. Try to befriend them, realizing that some nasty people will look at this as a sign of weakness, and stab you in the back anyway.

In his book "The Greatest Salesman in the World," Og Mandino has several "scrolls of success." One of those scrolls tells you to look at each person you meet, and say (to yourself, of course) "I love you." Sometimes, understanding is the best way to combat a bad attitude. If all else fails, it gives you more to use against them.

3. Realize it may just be a different way of reacting to the world than you know, and you can learn something from them.
I grew up in a little town, and when I started dealing with people who grew up in larger cities, I found many of them had a different mindset. In a small town, you learn everybody's troubles, and it doesn't matter. In a larger city, you learn nobody's troubles, and like it that way. Sometimes, we can perceive a negative attitude in someone when all we're really encountering is a different way of looking at life. Learn more about the person, and learn from their strengths. Use those strengths to make yourself better.

4. Concentrate on content, not delivery.
Some years ago, when I was doing some newspaper reporting, I was covering two speeches. One speaker was mesmerizing, but when I wrote down what he was saying, he wasn't saying a whole lot. The second speaker was subdued, but his speech contained a lot of meat in it. The difference was totally delivery. Often when someone has a negative approach to life, they may still deliver a lot of great information in what they say. Learn to ignore the attitude, and concentrate on the content.

5. Always be positive, no matter what.
I'm not suggesting you ignore negative attitudes, only that you choose to not respond to it in a negative way. It doesn't really matter what kind of attitude gets thrown your way -- what matters is how you deal with it, and how you perceive its worth.

6. Help them to change, through example.
By keeping a positive outlook, and dealing with people in a positive way, (even when their personal approach to life may be negative) you can make a real difference in others' lives. Positive people tend to be promoted higher than negative ones. Positive people tend to accomplish more out of life, and make more of an impact as they go through life.

Years ago, I was responsible for a team of people. One member of that team had a real problem with the former leader. He refused to work. When I became the team leader, I chose to ignore the former problems, and take a "leadership through example" approach. It reformed the way the "troubled" person looked at what he was doing -- only because I refused to let my personal approach to team leadership be dictated by what I had been told about that person.

Example is a powerful motivator, for both positive and negative change.
Negative attitudes only impact us when we let them. By choosing to remain positive, we choose to keep our life oriented toward our needs and goals, and we can impact those around us in a positive way.

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Jiwa Tenang Hati Sepi...

2011-07-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

Di kejauhan ku lihat mentari pagi
mewarna indah si awan bersih..
Duniaku kembali cerah
secerah panas terik siang bercahaya..

Tiba masa untuk bertolak..
perasaan malas hinggap hanya seketika
pentingnya kerja itu dari tidur ku selak..

Terdetik kiranya kiraan hari, bulan dan tahun
Sebegitu pantas laju masa beralun
Bergerak perlahan dan pasti
Memangu hati ku yang bersepi...

Solatku buat Jiwaku Nyawaku...
Diam batu berdoa bertelungku
Jiwaku tenang walau berbuku..
buat Dia yg mampu memutar alam hidupku...

Badai berlalu bertemankan tenangnya laut
Angin menyapa wajah berbirat kerutan..
Awan kelam bersalut jingga..
Indah di mataku hangat terasa benamnya cahaya..

Putaran waktu menyembuhkan luka
terasa jiwa beralun tenang
namun rindu ku kembali menatang hati
sepi terundang sekali lagi di malam terangnya bintang..

Ya Allah.. sibukkan diriku dengan rancangan mu
walau jiwaku tenang.. hatiku mulai sepi..

End.

When you find yourself...

2011-07-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

When you find yourself
In some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly
You're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself

When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settlin' down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself

When you meet the one
That you've been waitin' for
And she's everything that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for some one else
And then you find yourself
That’s when you find yourself

When we go through life
So sure of where we're headin'
And we wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Lie to Me

2011-06-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

I would try to catch up with 3-4 specific channels on Astro Beyond. They are 701, 706, 710 and 393. Most of the time, I don't have time to watch them... I'll just to rely on downloads.

Even that has been out of commission for a while. hahaha.. actually its not that important to be able to watch all these drama.. most importantly if you have spent your quality time in a way that would be worth while. My precious are demanding.. so had to set the priority right. :-)

Anyway, I have stopped to hope for bigger things as it does not come easily and it takes like forever to materialize.. so I have to stop hoping for them.. stick to small wins and short term goals.. Man even that is hard to come by these days.

Day after day I thought that it would happened but it didn't. I felt like I'm being lied to every single day.. :-)

Don't get me wrong.. I'm not targeting anyone specific.. It is just a feeling that I have, that I can't rely solely on those promises, until it is possible to be fulfilled. Most people are so sincere in their offerings but I know for sure if Allah says that it is not the time, it is just that. :-) So Ren, Ren, Ren.. means patience, patience, patience.

I lied to myself all the time too. hahaha.. just to give myself morale boost or keep me motivated or just keep me sane.

Simplest things are not simple anymore. It requires sophisticated tools to maintain simplicity. Aren't we the complex lot?!

m(^_^)m

Oh My.. which one would it be..

2011-06-15T01:52:00.001+08:00

I know that I am taking too much of the responsibility.. but I gather that being more focus and better time management, I can be what it is expected of me by that one person that seems to want to teach me all she knows. And I am grateful for her insight.

I have wanted to have something that I am proud of, my mom and family would be proud of. I hope that I can do this!..

Another person think so too.. now I am doomed! Which one do I choose? I am not that brilliant ok? But will try my best!.. argghh.. it's so hard.. focus focus focus...

(^_^)

Do not Attempt to copy this ...

2011-06-06T16:31:00.007+08:00

BECAUSE you can CREATE your Own.. so STOP hijacking my Images...

Seriously, Do check with me FIRST...

Thank you for your utmost attention to details.

My Debut...

2011-06-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today we had an event.. the debut for me and what I have written.. yeayyy.. hahaha.. I was like an ostrich!! went and stick my head in the sand!.. anyway..

It's not exactly mine but hey, I'm proud and felt so honored when a person asked me to autograph it... wow.. never felt this good! hehehe

Love to chat more about but it is not my place to reveal too much of it but what I can say is, its an important document and yes, I will be writing sequels to it.

Thank you for lending me your ears!..

(^_^)

Where is Home?

2011-05-29T22:08:00.005+08:00

I'm missing home. I know I am home but I miss my home "home".

It's not the size of it, or the location. It's the warmth and love and everything nice...hey, this is not power puff girls okay? heehehe

Feeling of belonging, knowing that you are loved and prayed for.Knowing that whenever you arrive at the doorsteps, you know that whoever that opens the door is glad and happy to see you.

I don't know but I miss home...

Meet Bruno Mars!!

2011-05-28T17:31:00.005+08:00

I recently met Bruno and I felt in love with his music, his voice and his personality. His face is not a stereotype celebrity, its so unique and he has a great smile.

This is one of the many songs he wrote that I would love for someone to dedicate it to me. It's a dream for any girl to be accepted for who she is and not because she can be someone else.

Here it is, enjoy!

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Check him out at www.brunomars.com

It has been awhile..

2011-05-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

I was really shocked to get an email saying peopalove had searched jobstreet.. and they found me...wow.. never in this lifetime..so far..

Anyway, I was skeptical since this is the first.. but I when into their website still... and check them out.. interesting.. very much what I would want to do..

I'll need to Penang? errrr... hmmm.. maybe I should..

Funny how things just worked out... (^_^)

Acquired Stress!!!

2011-05-22T11:36:00.007+08:00

I'm sooooo stress right now that if it is a bomb, it would have exploded!!!

I should have take charge since day 1 it was passed to me but I wasn't that power crazy that it makes me want to intrude onto the previous owner. Oh boy, that is just so lame.. sigh.. I should have taken charge coz she's not that helpful or swamped with work too??? yea right .. excuses, excuses...geram laaaaaa.. I also have tons of excuses too you know.. hehe.. in the end we are somewhat the same..

Anyway.. I'm rectifying and the deadline sucks!!!... Oh well, it's really was my fault that I only started looking at it on the last week of April.. now its MAY!!!

Ok, three more chapters to go and we're done! Just need to send this over to my beloved ED and .. a few others.. pheww.. sometimes.. things just happens..

Mama mia.. here we go again... (^_^)

No.. I'm not OK

2011-04-19T20:18:00.004+08:00

I couldn't really sleep... a lot of things were going through my mind like kaleidoscope of memories, images, this and that and everything else.. all into one big chunk of colors.. It didn't make any difference whether I close my eyes or not.

I'm wide awake... reminiscence of the things that what could, what had and what should, happened. I'm just going to have to face these. With my eyes wide opened.

Just a moment in time, I had wanted to have the choices that I can choose for once, for myself. But I guess I'm not that kind of selfish. :-)

Fellow Followers of Mine...

2011-04-14T17:40:00.004+08:00

I was playing around with the new gadgets that blogger.com was offering and I didn't realised that when I shifted the "followers" gadget, all information will disappear.

PLEASE, do re-register yourself again and I really do want you to be on my page. Thank you for the support and loyalty.

Teru Teru Bozu.. n(^_^)n

The IPad Phenomenon

2011-04-14T01:03:00.004+08:00

It used to be IPAD now we have IPAD 2!!

It's at Low Yatt at this moment and please don't stop by MAC Studio just yet because it's not there! Where at? OK, you need to go to Level 2 instead.

Now where exactly is it? I would recommend that you just stay on that floor and start exploring...

Hahaha.. Am not trying to pull a stunt here. It's just that either MAC Studio hasn't got it yet or you are buying those black market kind of thing. And I don't want you to get the wrong idea of me encouraging people to get this off the market.

Anyway, some nice new features like the front and back camera, USB port, Slimmer body and it comes with 2 colors instead of one. I particularly love the white one.

And you want to know what else is so cool? The magnetic new cover for it. It's so awesome! It's a smart cover that's multi-functional. AND it comes in several bright funky colours. Awesome! Just Awesome!

Another Song..Glee

2011-04-09T23:58:00.004+08:00

I was watching one of my favourite show on Fox and during commercial break, I switch to Star World and Glee was on.

I stay on for a little while and they started singing this song. I've heard of it before but I guess it didn't really get me until I saw both Rachel and Puck sang this. It was really, really good!

So here it is... I love it!

Originally by Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

It does take me to a time that I remembered so well... but again, it's already in the past and the future is always in front of us.. onwards and upwards...InsyaAllah.

Sweet Message on my Telephone...

2011-04-08T10:34:00.003+08:00

I recently met a few lovely ladies while at the Surau and the train.. sometimes in an event..hehehe.. friendly lot..

So last Tuesday, I've received a lovely and sweet message.. very nice!...

A warm hello doesn't come from the lips;
It comes from the heart;
doesn't have to be told, it has to be shown;
doesn't have to be given, it has to be sent;
hello nurul nadira! see u around :-)

Someone to be missed...

2011-04-06T11:26:00.003+08:00

Nearing to the rendezvous point to go to work today... I received news that Omak Tobang has passed away...

She is a sweet lady, small in size and very skinny, who lived in Tarachi village off Negeri Sembilan. Her house is too big for her since she's all alone. One of her children is living and working in the UK and seldom got the chance to come home.

She is someone to be missed and may Allah bless her and place her along side those with Iman.

Inna Lil lahi Ro'jiun.

My New Dad...

2011-04-05T08:54:00.004+08:00

I have a new dad.. no, he is not married to my mum.. hehehe

It happened on a rainy day when I was out on a field work.. but much earlier, I received news of abg sobar's passing. He was in a mosque when he passed away. I was already near the place where I would be doing my field work.. So I had to go back.. But then, it was very late and the train doesn't have the tickets. What was left is the bus station. However, even that is not available. So I had to stay one more night and be gone the next day.

Early morning was raining like cats and dogs. But I woke up early and had breakfast before we made a move to the bus station. My boss was quite worried about the news and me going off alone like that. I was following her and the team afterall.

So this person, (my new dad), carried my bags and brought me to the station with my boss. And we were are the counter buying the tickets..

The bus driver, standing next to us, asked, "Is that your daughter?" My dad looked at me and said, "Yea, she is my daughter, and I am sending her to school". "Itu la dia ni, tak nak belajar".. "Saya antar dia pergi belajar dia main-main" hehehe..I couldn't stop myself from laughing...

Anyway, when I boarded the bus, the driver asked me again, whether my "dad" mind that I am a muslim?.. I said, Not at all.. He did not mind at all. :-)

That is how I've got a new dad and until today, everytime I see him, we will laugh about that day. I call him "Kai Tie" or "StepFather" or rather "Appa" hehehe...

What a day! What a day!

Watch Watcher Watches...

2011-03-31T13:52:00.003+08:00

Was doing work and right taking a break for a while.. my Haziq is pestering me to play with him... anyway.. had to hand over my BB for him to check out all the home video I have recorded .. subject? my Haziq.. who else.. hehehe... even my Along and Angah didn't get that kind of attention. Mum was saying how come I took so much of my Haziq's photo than the two? Well.. he is the one that I spend more time with or most of the time. He is the one that will stay by my side while I'm working.. pestering me.hhehehe

Anyway, I was looking for some data and I saw some wrist watch.. nice ones.. they even have them like pink and white.. shocking pink!... I like purple and blue but pink looks so gorgeous too..

It has been ages since I have a wrist watch.. still waiting for the opportunity to shop for one.. many promises to get me one but as always.. promises do not get fulfilled. I do understand completely that presents are not mandatory. :-)

I was at KLCC the other day.. In and out smoothly just getting what I came to do, done!.. The trip was short but the journey was really long.. hopping trains and monorail... walking and using the stairs.. wow, I'm surprised that I didn't gain weight!.. hah!

Being a watcher, I watched my favorite watches... so beautiful and some are just exquisite. I can do right now is watch.. not yet on the buy buyer buys theme.. hehehe

Ok.. back to work! else my cense is going to go bonkers!!.. hehehe

~(^_^)~

Bila aku bukan orang berduit...

2011-03-31T08:50:00.004+08:00

orang pandang pun tidak.. apa tah lagi nak tolong.. minta maap banyak2 ok!!!!...

Memang gitu la manusia.. zaman sekarang ni tak berduit (kayo).. tak dak can nak orang pandang kita tau... apatah lagi nak bersosial.. for sure lalu pun tak nampak... hehehehe...

Semalam aku ada dinner ngan boss aku.. boss pompuan ok.. jangan nak mengarut pikir yang bukan-bukan ok.. hehehehe... so since aku ni memang tak dak kereta.. boss aku antar aku sampai KL Sentral la sebab budak2 lain tu dorang belah2 wangsa maju, gombak gitu.. mana ler sama route...boss jer yg dekat.. sebab dia dok PJ..

Yang tak bestnye tu... daku sampai kat situ 9.15 gitu.. bila aku turun kat bawah, train cuma akan sampai jam 9.57pm... mak ai.. apa lagi.. tunggu la beb.. nak buat macam mana lagi..haiii.. lambat la aku sampai umah niii...dah lah banyak kojo aku nak kena siapkan ni... tu suma ada price tag tau.. tak siap.. tak kena bayor.. hhehehe

Tunggu punya tunggu.. laaaa.. dia sampai jam 10pm plak.. aduh.. tak pe.. relax.. naik duduk.. sambar tempat duduk ... sampai dah stop kat Serdang aku call la bagitau.. kejap lagi sampai.. tapi sampai pun dah nak masuk 11pm... dah train pun gerak perlahan... signboard pun tak nampak sangat.. aku pun main kira berapa stops .. tapi nak baik dah nak dekat tu tetiba suara driver kata.. UKM.. ok.. cantek.. dah dekat..

Bila aku dah masuk lam keta.. aku kena taruk la apalagi ...

So moral of the story.. bila kita tak berduit (bukan tak de duit langsung) ... benda2 macam kereta la.. umah la.. payah sikit kita nak ade.. betul tak?.. lain la kalau kita ni dapat umah free tak yah bayor (parents' house hehehe).. dapat kereta free tak yah bayor (parents' car) .. itu lain crita la.. aku dari dulu masa kecik2 pun memang reti naik bas.. so tau la susah tu apa rupa dia kan...

So kita jadi bersyukur ngan apa yang kita ada.. of course suma orang pun akan mengadakan apa yang tak de tu.. for sure aku pun serupa.. masa aku kojo kaw kaw dulu.. aku pun ada beli keta.. kadang selalu drive kereta besar auntie uncle boss dan kawan2 punya ... dorang lagi loaded.. hehehe.. tapi tu suma high maintenance.. tak kisah la... yg penting aku penah test drive.. wkakakaka... aku memang suka kereta.. minat..

berbalik kepada moral tadi.. hehehe... moral of the story.. bila dah jadi orang berduit, kita jangan kedekut dengan pertolongan, kudrat kita dan kemampuan kita... time aku berduit dan tak berduit.. aku rasa alhamdullilah aku pernah la jugak menyumbang ... bukan nak berbangga.. tapi aku rasa bersyukur, sebab Allah masih sayangkan aku.. wallahualam

Ganjaran dan pahala.. semoga itu yang Allah berikan pada mereka2 yang telah menolong aku.. terima kasihhhhh...aku doakan Allah dapat membalasnya ketika aku tak mampu...

Strong Heart...

2011-03-26T11:00:00.004+08:00

I was watching OneHD this morning.. kind of like catching up with my favourite drama "Loving You a Thousand Times"... but it was not on air.. "Daring Woman" was..

So since a reality TV show was ending.. I kept it on and watch it...

anyway.. they were having some of the actor to perform a little bit and one of them did a great number on a sad song but oh soooo funnyyyyy... here are they..

"I when to a director's birthday batch and to get his attention, I put $300 on an envelop and gave it to him as a present...then I realised that i forget to write my name on it!"

"I was watching an adult film on the computer with my buddy Seung Gi, suddenly my mum when into my room. Seung Gi quickly switch off the monitor, but we forgot to switch off the loud speaker!" wahahahahahaa... I can't stop laughing when he came to this part..

so he continued ..

"I when on a ride with my girlfriend in my car, and I intentionally drove till we were out of gas, the car broke down. But my girlfriend fixed it! Blasted!!"

Hahahahaha...

I hoped you guys enjoyed this as much as I am because it was really funny ... and he end it by showing the audience a trick, "touching your nose with your tongue!...

Teru Teru Bozu...

Sinar Pagi... I followwww

2011-03-23T17:49:00.004+08:00

Seawal jam 7 pagi memang suara Kril, KE dan SY akan berkumandang kat radio.. time tu jer la saya akan mula mendengar... sebelum tu agak sibuk dengan persiapan kelengkapan berperang untuk permata-permataku agar mereka boleh berjuang dengan lebih baik di medan ilmu...

Hari ni seperti hari-hari yang lain.. sungguh lucu dan kelakar giler dorang bertiga.. kadang tergelak-gelak sorang-sorang... wakakahahaha...

Jom nengok video-video kelakor dorang...sinar pagi

Sape-sape yang berminat nak jadi DJ kat radio... kena antar resume macam biasa tau.. lepas tu kena pegi audition.. bleh pilih lagi nak baca berita ke, DJ ke, English ke, Bahasa Melayu ke, etc.

Masa mula-mula tu memang la nampak potensi, tapi bila dah masuk bilik audition.. fuih.. berpeluh-peluh jugak.. pas tu tadi lidah bukan main ligat lagi dok pi sembang ngan penerbit... tetiba jer dia jadi kelu semacam.. adengan kesasulan melampau pun mula la.. ahaks!!!

Korang nak p tak dak hal punye.. jangan p pakai slepar suda.. hehehe.

Its My Anniversary...

2011-03-17T12:46:00.003+08:00

It's that time and moment again...
It comes with a feeling of sorrow.

It's that time and memories rush by...
Waiting for the wishes to come and follow.

It's not the presents or material that are seek...
Its the lovely thoughts and wishes we speak.

It's the years of marked journey we have passed...
To have a name, a calling, a reminder blast.

It's my anniversary again..
For time again, seems to be forgotten without warn.

Teru-Teru Bozu... "(^_^)"... :-) No worries.. :-)

Its the Month of March..

2011-03-17T12:19:00.004+08:00

This month has been a whirly, most sleep-deprived days weeks and not to mention the distances that I had to travel.

Sometimes I just miss my dear ol' car. Not that I regret letting it go but it's the convenience that it brings. And the space, enough for my kids to have a fight over who sits in the middle.. hehehe.. nostalgic...

I've tons of things to settle this month and this would definitely take almost 2 days of my sleep...I have to read all of this papers from July 2009 till now. Not easy but got to go ahead with it. Else I'll procrastinate and procrastinate again... hehehehe

There are 2 things that are significant to the month of March.. hey.. not 2 .. but 3 things.. and now these 3 things doesn't seem to mean a whole lot anymore.. so sad but I guess I can't let that stop me from moving forward, right?

Whenever I'm not myself, looking through some interior designs, home decor or even going to places like Ikea, Houz Depot, MinLon, KLCC, etc... alleviate my dark feelings... it would make my smile more meaningful and has substance.. cheerful ones.. :-)

My precious are destroying the place!.. I've got to go.. crime awaits me... :-)

"(^_^)"

Bloggers I follow...

2011-03-16T15:02:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile I featured anyone on my blog. Not that I don't want to but I guess I am a bit busy lately and not just that, I had to compete with Angah on the Internet usage. He can be very nasty when it comes to cutting his Internet time short! Haha..

Anyway, I have recently introduced to one person and he has a big voice but cute car, a mini cooper. You'll never going to be able to guess how old is he but then again age is just an incrementing number to us all..

He works in an organisation that so far talks about one issue that many would find it sensitive but for me its a matter of choice and belief.

So do check him out and expand our network of people that could change some part of how we think, feel, talk and listen.

D'Journey Thru My Eyes...

Through Dino, I met Ru.. hers is Ruzana but I kind of like Ru better... It was because of the photographer that I get to know her nickname .. and I think it suits her.. :-)

As I have always said before, there's a time and place for these meetings.. it does have its specific purposes.. but whatever it is.. I'm felt blessed.

m(^_^)m

The race for time and extension

2011-03-10T21:25:00.003+08:00

I'm beat up man! really am tired. Last night didn't sleep till like nearly 6am. Had to read the articles on the mind map I was working on. I promised to submit by Wednesday but it was Wednesday that I managed to complete most of it. I had a lot of reading to make up to so it is something I can't avoid or ignore entirely.

Tomorrow I had to be in Cyberjaya. Oh man!.. How on earth am I going to be there on time??... Argh.. searching for all kinds of transportation... cheap ones of course...

Buses is a possibility but I'm not so sure whether they still have that in Serdang Station. It says here it will be going to Cyberjaya from RM2.10. I hoped that this mini site is valid. Check it out!

http://www.i-putra.com.my/minisite/transport.html

This would mean I either walk, 5 hrs 57 mins or get a bus in Serdang Station... I really regret for not having a car right now... but well.. ya.. you know..

I'm cracking my head right now.. so I might as well just leave it till tomorrow. Allah would shed some light on this problem.... Drop me a bike or a car or something like that.. am not making fun of this or Allah .. just trying to cheer myself up..

~Sigh~ sometimes I felt that I have had enough.. but I know I had to be strong.. well...

signing off and see you when I see you~~

Dress for Your Self-Confidence

2011-02-24T13:34:00.005+08:00

I was doing some research with my chrome and along the way, saw some pretty good articles. Check these out.

10 basic pieces for women (Part 1)

10 basic pieces for women (Part 2)

However, do not forget yourself when you go and get them. You must try it out and match it up to see whether these styles suit you BEFORE you go and pay for them. NOBODY is going to sue you just by trying out outfits.. not on my watch that is. :-)

So gals out there, just read and don't rush in changing your wardrobe. Any unwanted clothes or outfit, email me and I'll let you know where you can donate them or sell if you must. Simply because there are people out there that need it more than you or your closet do.

Until then, teru teru bozu is signing off. Have a fine day y'all!!!

Twitting Twitter

2011-02-20T11:06:00.003+08:00

Ever since my RIM phone offered twitter, I have not jump in to use it or sign in. I have a facebook account but not really that active except bugging some friends and occasional birthday wishes. I do realize that it is a useful tools, twitter included, but my priorities were on other things...

Anyway, I find it great and useful, I get news faster that my useful news portal. Friends react faster as they have twitter and facebook on their smartphones. smartphones are becoming more and more readily available and affordable.

I have started twitting my own and re-twit others' interesting twits. You kind of rely a bit more on the information twitted but I still want to check it out by twitting to some specific friends for confirmation. Sometimes you just had to be careful. Information hungry people may take it seriously and the effects are felt almost instantly.

I became more and more selected in my twits and not everything should be twit and those that is worth the twit needs re-twit. Twitting twitter for the better.

Working on the Words...

2011-02-14T13:17:00.002+08:00

I was scouting for jobs.. any jobs so that I have the monthly pay check to satisfied my present commitments.

Well, I did find a job but not the kind that would give me a monthly pay check though. However, I've realised that I should do this more often...Writing.

However, when I google around, I guess I'm not the only one. There are tons of people out there that does this for a living. Oh man... why didn't I thought of this before. I was typing, translating, writing for people. I didn't think I would go far so I stopped.

When doing my master degree what made me have a go at it again.. and when I was introduced to a Ms Fui, fellow Sabahan that are currently teaching or mentoring me.

I'm grateful for what Allah has given me so far, although I still have a very long way to go.. commitments are still chasing me like crazy.

I guess the only way now is forward... words can cut like a knife, deep and painful.

What to Ask at Your Interview - On Careers (usnews.com)

2010-12-22T09:17:00.000+08:00

These are thoughtful questions. The one that people would ask when they are going into a place that we have no prior network or insider. It would be helpful to us as the candidate asking the right question but more so whether we will get the valuable answers. Many would have experience different style of the interview session where the interviewer does not have that much questions on you. Rather they have questions that you might not guess they would asked when you know that the position has no relation at all to what was being asked.

What to Ask at Your Interview - On Careers (usnews.com)

20 Industries Where Jobs Are Coming Back - Rick Newman (usnews.com)

2010-12-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

This is a study done in US. Which is good because you get to see the statistics and understands why things happened. I wonder if we ever thought of having something like this. At least we know where we are.. truely...

20 Industries Where Jobs Are Coming Back - Rick Newman (usnews.com)

Writers Block...

2010-12-20T17:49:00.002+08:00

I have so many things to write about but then had to wait for awhile. Busy moving stuff around still.

Had to move out of the house pronto...

So maybe when I have time will write some more. :-)

Malaysia's Job Outlook 4th Quarter 2010

2010-12-02T09:08:00.002+08:00

Something for my readers...not sure how many of you will see it.. but hey, I'll paste it anyway... :-)

http://www.jobstreet.com.my/aboutus/preleases138.htm

Malaysia’s job outlook for Fourth Quarter 2010 remains relatively optimistic, says JobStreet.com
29 October 2010

Kuala Lumpur, 29 October 2010 – JobStreet.com releases its Job Outlook Report for the Fourth Quarter of 2010, following generally confident sentiments provided by the government’s recently announced and much-vaunted Economic Transformation programme (ETP).

The Job Outlook Index, as measured by JobStreet.com, looks at the expectations of job growth (or employment prospects) in the industries on a quarterly basis. A higher index means that the industries are creating jobs and employment, while a lower index means the reverse with lesser jobs on offer.

For the Fourth Quarter of 2010, the Job Outlook Index registered 60 points, which marked a three-point fall from the 63 points of the preceding quarter.

Job Growth or Employment Prospects: For the Fourth Quarter of 2010, about 51 percent of respondents said that the general job outlook would be better for the next 12 months. This signalled a slight drop from the previous quarter’s 54 percent from the previous quarter, who answered similarly. Another 27 percent felt it will remain the same, while the remaining 21 percent felt it could be slightly or much worse.

Comparison with 4Q2009: Respondents were definitely more optimistic this time around, when asked about the general job outlook for the Fourth Quarter of 2010, when compared with the same time frame last year. About 51 percent said that the job outlook will be better this year, a slight jump from the 48 percent who answered similarly last year. Elsewhere, 27 percent this year said that conditions will remain the same for the Fourth Quarter of 2010, a slight dip from the 29 percent who responded similarly last year. Finally, 21 percent of respondents thought that employment prospects will get worse, a fall from the 23 percent who had a similar notion in the same period last year.

Hitting the Bottom: Respondents were optimistic when asked if the economy had hit the bottom, with an encouraging 27 percent holding the opinion that the national economy has reached the depths, and another 27 percent saying that it will do so soon. Another 36 percent opined that there is still some time to go before the economy bottoms out, and a mere 10 percent said that there is still a long way to go before the economy really goes down.

Effect on the Economy: Respondents were also confident that the national economy will soon be freed from the effects of the global slowdown, with 20 percent saying that the economy will recover in six more months. Another 33 percent was more cautiously optimistic, giving 12 more months for the economy’s revival. Others said that it will take longer for the economy to be revitalized, with 17 percent giving it 18 months, and 20 percent giving it 24 months or longer. Interestingly, 10 percent of respondents said that the national economy is no longer affected by the global slowdown.

Hiring Activities: Employers were less optimistic when it comes to hiring activities, with 40 percent of respondents saying that they are hiring less for the next 12 months, getting new employees to only fill in certain essential positions. Another 22 percent said that they are maintaining their present hiring rate, while 27 percent feel certain enough to increase their hire rate. A mere 11 percent said that they will not be doing any hiring exercises in the foreseeable future.

Top specializations sought: The survey also asked respondents about the job specializations in current demand, should they decide to hire any new staff during the Fourth Quarter of 2010. For most industries, persons with skills in marketing, business development, sales and marketing are the most wanted kind of employees, followed by people with expertise in computer and information technology and customer service. Also required are people with engineering and sales/marketing skills, and also top management personnel. Rounding out the top ten job specializations are human-resource and electrical engineering positions.

Note: About 900 JobStreet.com clients, managers and senior managers across various industries in Malaysia participated in this survey in October 2010.

What people are saying about Fourth Quarter 2010:

“The government is doing the right measures in having to allow the private sector to spearhead the economy. The government should only facilitate the business environment to make Malaysia a business friendly nation.” (Industry: Others)

“There is difficulty in looking for the right candidate, as there is no control on applicants applying for the most suited position.” (Industry: Manufacturing)

“Companies continue to be wary of the economic outlook and shall hire essentials only.” (Industry: Manufacturing)

“Risk Management jobs are in demand. More and more companies are looking for staff with experience and expertise.” (Industry: Finance)

“Private sector investment remains sluggish and slow growth in consumer demand due to rapidly increasing prices which outpaced income. Without FDI inflows, it would be difficult for the present job market though the worst is over.” (Industry: Finance)

Conspiracy of One Dollar Bill

2010-11-24T11:42:00.001+08:00

http://www.conspiracycafe.net/forum/index.php?/topic/23900-one-dollar-bill-conspiracy/

My friend in class supplies this. Check it out.

The Month of November

2010-11-24T10:51:00.002+08:00

I really have a lot to thank for but then again, I don't really know how long I can survive.

THEY would keep calling though and I will keep dodging. What to do... haven't got anything solid yet.

Anyways, I am trying my hardest. Hopefully I get lucky and with the help of a few friends.

I will keep on writing and you will keep on being my audience, right?.. hehehe..

Tanam Anggur di Musim Tengkujuh

2010-10-01T21:14:00.003+08:00

Beres! Aku sekarang tanam anggur sambil susun strategi model business yang aku inginkan. Terasa sunyi jugak lah sebab teman2 pun super busy dengan kehidupan masing2. Adik2 yang manja pun begitu. Bila lah nak datang bawa kakak diorang ni jalan2.

Minggu depan aku ada hal kat town. Belum lagi aku call anak buah aku nak reconfirm tukar hari. Esoklah kot. Bill phone aku melambung beb, so tengah berjimat ikat perut Dan juga handset. Hehehehe ikat pakai getah sayur.

Percaya atau tidak, aku tengah consider tengok2 emas celup Zhulian. Tengok jer, cantik2 lah. Nak compare ngan the real thing memang payah lah sebab harga jauh beza beb. Sungguh jauhhhhh. Tengok2 je. Hehehe taukeh anggur kena lah ukur kain kat badan ni. Mana nak sama ngan taukeh kedai runcit. Hehehe

Internet pun macam chipmore, kejap boleh kejap tak boleh. Hah, nengok? Aku dah kena tutup sebab ada orang nak guna. Nasib2. Oklah beb, wa cao dulu.

Hanya Allah Saja Yang Tahu...

2010-09-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

Dan manusia hanya bisa melihat dengan mata kasar.. bukan dengan mata hati... kalau ada yang melihat dengan mata hati.. mereka pasti berkata... "aku sebenarnya.. tidak dapat bayangkan apa sebenarnya orang ini rasa dan hadapi.."

Semuanya akan selesai tak lama lagi... dengan izinNya.. pasti akan selesai... Aminnn

Bulan ada Dua pada 26 Aug 2010

2010-08-27T17:39:00.004+08:00

Semalam kan.. Abang aku cakap.. jam 12.30 am nanti akan kelihatan dua bulan.. ada juga aku baca kat paper.. tapi tak ingat bila dah... lepas ni.. fenomena ni akan muncul lepas 800 tahun akan datang.. errr.. kita mana de lagi lepas tu.. entah2.. kiamat dah ....

Tapikan.. tak de plak nampak dua bulan.. cuma nampak ada satu sinaran kecil di tepinya ... terang macam bintang...

Aku ada tempat nak pegi ... InsyaAllah...

Aku ni Menyusahkan orang tau!

2010-08-25T16:47:00.004+08:00

Aku ni teramat menyusahkan orang. Nak pergi kerja pun kena hantar jemput. Bila nak naik komuter kena cakap gila, sukahati aku jer nak naik komuter. Menyusahkan betul. Aku kata aku nak naik bas pun aku kena lagi. Entah.

Pas tu ada seminggu dua tu aku langsung tak de duit nak pi naik2 komuter ke, bas ke. Aku pun menagih lah kotnya ada yang sudi tumpangkan aku ke tempat koje.. ada juga lah kecoh2 skit.. tapi nak wat cam ner.. buat muka seposen je lah...dah tak de duit la katakan...

Hari ni mencabar keimanan dan kesabaran daku betoi lah... Boleh plak ari ni bas biru tu tak muncul-muncul. Aku dah terpacak kat depan simpang jalan masuk sejam jugak. Sempat dua kereta prebet (private) lalu. Tapi kali ni kereta kedua tu berhenti dan buat U turn kat depan jalan. Aku pun dah lewat kan.. tanya lah kat pakcik tu.. dia kata RM8 tapi kerana dah dua kali dia lalu aku masih terpacak kat situ, dia kecian tengok.. dia kata tak pe lah.. RM6 jer.. aku dah malas nak pikir. Aku ikut jer, rupanya nama pakcik tu Pak Man. Dia tinggal depan rumah aku jer.. kat flat. Dia kata bas memang kadang kala macam tu. Dia kata lain kali nak pegi ke KTM, call jer. Aku ni bukan ape... dah lah aku ni orang baru kat situ... kali ni jer la aku amik kereta sapu.. tak berani lepas ni... aku pun penakut juga ape.. sekuat2 aku.. aku ni tetap jugak perempuan. Macam mana degil sekali pun aku nak buat semua sendiri, kudrat aku tetap terhad.

Aku sampai jer kat KTM, Pak Man ni plak tak de small change.. perghh...aku pun terpaksa melilau cari orang yang bleh tolong aku pecahkan RM10 aku ni... akhirnya jumpa jugak tapi tren aku terlepas!... ces.. nak wat cam mana lagi.. tunggu lagi... sabar jer la.. haih....

Dah teruji kesabaran aku selama setengah jam, tren aku pun datang... aku pun naik... sampai kat Serdang, bas plak lambat... hish... dugaan dugaan...

Raya is getting near...

2010-08-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

Dah dekat nak raya dah ni... lagu-lagu raya tempat aku kerja ni memang semuanya menyentuh jiwa anak perantauan macam daku ni.. hu hu.. perasan la tu konon... perantau la konon.. ya le tu.. hehehehe

Sekarang ni berkumandang lagu nyanyian Sharifah Aini tau.. eh? Dato' ke Datuk ke apa ah? Alahai.. teruknya aku ni.. itu pun aku tak tau kan.. dush... mengong betui la..

Esok aku kena bertolak dalam jam 1pm gitu kalau nak sampai kat tempat kerja sebelum jam 2pm... aku tak test lagi ni.. last aku test train tu lambat .. aku ni tertinggal bas.. ces cilangkong betui.. hehehe.. sabar.. sabar.. aku tau.. Allah masih sayang kat aku.. hehehehe... mujur dapat naik kan.. daripada tak de.. hehehe..

Aku rasa aku kena masak dulu sebelum aku jalan.. nanti ada yang merajuk tak nak makan sebab bukan aku yang masak.. aku ingat nak pesan suruh panaskan jer time nak buka posa sebab aku tak de masa tu kat umah.. permata2 aku tu semua jenis tak posa.. tau ngap ngap jer .. ehehehehe...kali ni ada pucuk ubi ... so sayur ni jer la diorang nak ... sayur lain kategori "vegetables" ... wakakaka.. kelakar kan.. pucuk ubi menurut permata2 aku tu .. bukan kategori sayur beb.. hehehehe ... cikgu pun sure pening kalau dengar ni.. ehehe..

Aku ceria ke?.. hehehe.. tak de lah.. teringat-ingat kat permata2 aku tu bila aku kerja.. kalau diorang ada kat sini.. mesti dah banyak aktiviti aku.. kerja memang tolak tepi lah.. hehehe

ahahhh.. tengah aku kuar dari tempat orang jual roti tadi kan.. aku berselisih ngan sorang tu ... tu laaa.. macam kenal la ... lepas tu dia sebut nama dia.. Cecelia dia kata.. terus aku pun apa lagi.. macam heroin hindustani la ... lari2 anak sket.. cewah.. sambil control ayu tu.. .terjadi la kisah peluk peluk.. uish... ni perempuan la.. ingat aku ni ape hah?... heheh.e... dah celoteh sini sana.. pas tu tukar tukar phone number.. siap janji la nak jumpa kat mana2 ntah.. heheheh...

Ari tu .. kira bulan lepas lah... aku jumpa Sopian.. pas tu aku juga.. ada sorang lagi kat bazar ramadhan.. cuma yang ni langsung tak ingat nama.. ni nak check senarai ex student UPM la nak refresh kan memori aku yang tengah terjejas dek bad sector dan virus2 yang macam bagus dan terror tu .. hehehe..

Aku memang suka virus virus ni.. biar diorang buat aku jadi lagi pelupa.. TAPI pelupa pada perkara-perkara yang buat hati aku jengkel, sakit dan berdarah jer lah.. yang baik2 tu toksah nak kaco la brader ... biar mood aku up sket.. semangat la skit nak keje..

Semalam aku rehat-rehatkan otak sket.. saje je .. sambil nak hilangkan sisa sisa demam aku.. tempat aku jaga tu dekat lah ngan Poh Kong... aku ni memang suka benda artistik.. tau la kan... wanita gitu.. hehehe... waduh waduh.. memang cantik mantik semua.. akan tetapi kak oi.. fuih.. mahai nyerrrr... tunggu la aku ada lebih banyak RM100 baru la aku tebus balik mana2 kilauan tu yang aku dah let go.. hehehehe... errr.. bukan tahun ni la.. tahun depan kot nye... skarang ni aku rasa better buat makan dulu.. yang kilau kilau tu tak boleh aku ngap lah.. hehehe

Baju-baju raya plak ada kat tingkat bawah ni... macam2 warna ade tau.. aku tinggal tengok jer lah.. tak tengok selalu pun sebab aku tak beli ... kalau aku ada duit nak beli baru aku berani tengok.. pegang lagi.. wakakaka... gitu la kita.. ada duit ada la kita belek2.. tak de duit.. tak yah la menyiksa batin nak pegang2.. nanti promoter tu jeling jeling manja kang.. hehehe... diorang pun dalam kepala for sure conggak2 komisen diorang kan.. nak raya la katakan..

oklah.. aku dah kena kemas ni.. nak tutup kedai dah ni.. korang .. tutup2 la pc tu.. nengok facebook jer manjang.. tak de keje lain ke.. pegi la solat terawih ke .. moreh ke... ngaji ke.. macam aku ni lain lah.. wakakakaka.. mengata korang.. aku ni yang terover lebih melimpah uwek.. kekekekek

oklah aku nak cao dah ni..

Proud Owner of RM50...

2010-08-23T20:51:00.003+08:00

I've got RM50 now. Big Money.. for me its big.. for you.. its peanuts.. isn't it? He he he...

But I used some up for my break fasting event today... RM3.90.. that should be enough for now. For a place like where I am right now.. that's the cheapest for cooked meat. I was going for some buns or sandwitches.. but the bakery was only left with very little choices.. maybe the staffs went off for break fasting as well..

Tonight after work I was thinking about cooking myself some eggs and heat up some leftovers with rice. That should do. I have to take my medication you know. Yea.. I am not well.. Must be the weather or something.

Tomorrow I have to plan on how do I go to work for the last 6 days. Got to split it up ... let me see.. RM6 x 2 x 6 = RM64.00. Opsss.. I think I have to get another RM20 to cover the balance...hmmm...

oookkk.. I think I'll bring a bottle of water for break fasting... and wait till I'm home before I can really eat something solid. That should hold up for a while. Actually I forgot to bring my medication today. So, got to remind myself to take them tonight after dinner.

I was trying to rest my throat for awhile but can't stop myself from coughing so.. nothing I can do on that area.. just had to drink plenty of water (which again forgot to bring) to soothe them... It felt like a knife just wounded the sides and me eating and drinking just makes it worst of...

I kind of wanted to buy some ice cream but then again... I didn't have much choice but wait till I have more of that RM50 that I was talking about.. ;-)

Maybe I should make some like my Aunt did long time ago.. or maybe not.. ;-)

Mana Aku Nak Pergi Ni?

2010-08-18T13:16:00.003+08:00

Ari ni aku drive pergi kerja sebab tak de orang yang nak hantar aku. Ya lah, semua orang kata aku menyusahkan orang. Aku tak de pilihan lain selain pergi sendiri. Aku ingat nak naik bas, komuter dan bas lagi, tapi kerana semalam kata suruh aku bawa kereta so ari ni aku lambat sikit pergi kerja.

Sampai je aku kat Cheras, minyak dah E. Hai.. nasib badan betul. Cam mana aku nak balik ni nanti? Hmmm.. Aku rasa aku kena kira balik syiling yang ada dalam purse aku ni. Ya lah, gaji dah habis bayar itu ini. Ada duit syiling pun dah kira mewah dah... Aku gagahkan juga sms ngan tuan punya badan kata suruh aku bawa kereta ari ni.. aku minta la sekali duit nak beli syampu rambut.. dah seminggu aku tak basuh, naik rimas dah... tengah ari tadi dapat jawapan...

Dah tau E knp nak bawa juga. Kepala batukan. Berlagak sombong. Sekarang awak nak buat apa? Awak nak susahkan siapa lagi.

Aku mula tu malas la nak menjawab sebabkan.. aku dapat info lain.. bila dah buat .. kena juga.. hai.. nak wat cam mana.. Aku tau la aku ni menumpang jer... tak pe.. rezeki di tangan Allah.. Allah bleh bagi.. Allah pun bleh tarik balik..

Dah Azan dah... Azan Zohor.. kejap lagi aku solat la. Budak-budak dua orang ni tak sampai lagi. Sepanjang pagi ni belum kering lagi butiran permata kat mata aku ni.. Haiyer.. apsal la kilang proses butiran permata ari ni tak mau berenti... Entah lah.. dah nasib aku macam ni..

Aku rasa ari ni boleh la aku blah.. blah jauh... aku nak pegi mana lagi.. aku pun tak sure.. intan payung aku tiga tu patut tinggal atau tidak.. tak nak lah diorang jadi mangsa lah pulak.. Selfish ke aku kalau aku tinggalkan diorang? Aku sah sah tak de pitis ni.. aku nak pegi mana dengan duit syiing seinggit dua je ni...

Dugaan aku ni kira macam nothing kan?... Ya lah.. ada orang lain yang lagi teruk kot.. siap kena tetak ngan parang lagi.. aku ni ... entah la.. Allah je la yang tau ...

Mana aku nak pergi lagi ni.. entah... mati kot.. he he he... tak de ah.. masih ada sekelumit iman dalam dada ni... aku masih ok lagi.. tak biol lagi.. he he he.. tak pe lah dugaan..

CTOS CCRIS... here I come...

2010-08-11T10:37:00.004+08:00

Teetttttttt!!!!!!..... times up.. no more extension...

Sigh.. darn it!... well what to do.. I've tried my best and I guess It wasn't good enough for them...

My commission is yet to be credited.. I guess I'll have to throw in the towel and call it quits.. Mr and Mrs CTOS and CCRIS will be visiting very soon... ngehehehe.. yea.. crazy.. I can still laugh and smile and act normal... well, am not yet nuts if that is what you guys are reckon.

Oh well, had to seat this one in then. No choice.. no leeway .... kids.. we need to talk...

Friends and family, thank you for all your support and I just hoped that I get to see the light of day to be once more in your midst.

Teru Teru Bozu will no longer be available at this point of time. Adios Amigos.

I need A CAR...

2010-08-09T15:18:00.002+08:00

I really need a car.. sigh..

I was eying MYVI but then again.. had to consider a boot. My precious has lots of activities and needed the space which does not involve the back seat. I need those cleared of anything that Abdul can wreck. yaiks!!! he is soooooooooooo not listening to me these days.. urrgghh...

I still need to wait a few months.. need to settle my banks. I am in the verge of being blacklisted... nothing I can do because my income stinks right now.... Sabarrrrr....je la...

Hope my business falls through. IF not then I'll be in BIGGER trouble than I already am. Hrumpp....

Rindunya...

2010-08-09T07:16:00.003+08:00

Aku merindui tapi tak pasti sama ada juga dirindui...

Perjalanan ku ari ini...

2010-07-27T16:02:00.003+08:00

Aku ada kurang sihat skit ari ni.. macam berpusing-pusing aku rasa dunia ni.. permataku rupanya dah macam-macam diorang buat semasa aku rehatkan kepala aku ni... uish.. terpaksa lah aku bangun juga masuk campur. Kalau tak, hancus.. hehehehe...

Sepatutnya aku pegi kerja awal ari ni sebab biasanya dah ada kenderaan. Tapi ari ni seolah aku ni disuruh mencari sendiri cara dan bagaimana aku nak ke tempat kerja ni.. aduhhh.. tak apa.. dah namanya kerja kan..

Aku jalan kaki ke depan simpang tu pas tu naik bas biru ni.. sempat la aku tanya budak duduk depan aku tu..tambang berapa.. Seinggit rupanye.. ok ok.. dah siapkan duit.. tunggu la dia sampai kat komuter stesen kawasan aku ni.. fuih.. panas giler.. tapi nak wat cam mana kan.. hehehe.. yang penting tak menapak.. huhuhu..

Sampai je kat komuter terus beli tiket.. ade kah orang tu kata tak dengar aku cakap ape.. aku cakap SERDANG la.. pergghh... suara aku merdu sangat tuh.. dia nak dengar banyak kali.. wakakakaka...

Waaaaa... aircon mari.. dah mula kering skit2 .... orang sebelah aku bleh menonong masuk duduk terus tido.. penat kot.. ngehehehe... aku tunggu jer dia sebut serdang aku pun turun cepat-cepat.. dah lambat sangat ni.. tak sempat aku tanya bas no berapa.. bas tu dah sampai dan terus pergi.. aku pun saje je la tanya pak teksi tu berapa tambang.. dia kata.. RM17... mak ai.. tak jadi aku nak beli kupon.. itu duit makan aku 2 hari tau...

tak pe tak pe.. aku dok tunggu kat bas stand tengok ada ke tak nak sampai dalam waktu terdekat... kalau tak de juga.. aku tahan teksi jer la.. nak wat cam mana... tunggu punya tunggu.. bas datang pergi tapi bukan bas berkenaan.. terpaksa tunggu lagi.. last last datang teksi.. aku pun tanya je la.. mana la tau lebih murah ke .. atau bleh ikut meter.. skali dia sebut RM15.. haiyerrrr.. carik makan pun jangan la sapu duit makan aku..

Mau tak mau.. aku terpaksa juga la naik.. aku cakap la jugak.. biar dia tau.. tak selalu dia bleh macam ni.. aku tanya napa mahal.. dia kata balik kosong.. aku kata kesian la orang macam aku ni.. dia gelak.. suweh betul.. aku cakap la.. tambang ni duit makan aku dua hari.. dia diam jer..

nampak jer tempat kerja aku.. aku pun lega.. turun jer aku masuk letak bag pas tu pegi solat.. malas nak melayan perasaan aku .. tau la aku ni cengeng.. kuat menangis..

Perjalanan aku ari ni memang kelakar rasanya.. suma orang nengok aku semacam jer.. hehehehe... nak wat cam mana kan.. dah lah pakai vouge ari ni.. khehehee.. tumit tinggi lagi tu.. pergghhh.. hehehee.. pas tu tanya bas mana itu ini.. diorang terus tanya.. baru pindah sini ker kak?.. jawapannya?.. hehehe.. iya lah.. kekekeke..

Semoga Allah membalas yang setimpal pada mereka yang menolong aku ari ni.. amin..

Lamanya aku senyapp....

2010-07-26T15:59:00.003+08:00

Tak sabar rasanya menunggu puasa. Nak perbanyakkan ibadah... selain membuat beberapa perubahan.. hehehehee...

Selain merupakan bulan puasa yang pertama tanpa ibu di sisi, ia juga menandakan tahun kedua aku masih diduga, diuji dan dalam kesulitan. InsyaAllah, akan berakhir juga. Amin.

Bulan Julai ni aku berjumpa ngan beberapa orang yang baik-baik belaka. Cuma satu je, aku terlupa nak minta no phone. wakakakak.. teruknya. hehehehe... penyakit lupa aku semakin serius ler ni.. Namun yang penting, aku dah ucapkan terima kasih kat mereka-mereka ini kerana memberi bantuan pelbagai bentuk kat aku. Aku hargai pertolongan mu kawang2. Semuanya kerana izinNya juga.

Permata-permata aku syukur dapat menyesuaikan diri dengan suasana baru. Cuma Abdul aku ni, haiyerrr.. suka menempek kat aku.. nak melabur pun .. dah start concert rock dia.. sampai dia cuba nak melepasi ruang kecik kat bawah pindah selagi boleh menyelit, dia nak juga. Meraung sampai aku yang tak senang duduk. Haish... apo la dio ni.. dah aku kat kamar mandi la.. nak pi mana lagi.. hek elehhhh... nampak je dek aku ni.. terus volume decrease.. hehehe.. itu la permata intan payung aku.. wakakaka... menyanyi rock tak tentu pasal..

Aku ada lagi sorang permata yang dok asyik tanya aku bila nak pegi beli baju power rangers, ultraman, spiderman, transformer dan sewaktu dengannya. Aku kata tunggu la aku gaji bebenor dulu.. ni nak makan pun harap ehsan.. cess... jatuh standard aku ..hehehe

Sekarang ni aku ada susah hati skit tapi tak pe.. dah nama aku yang cun ni nak kena mark ngan bank.. aku nak buat macam mana lagi.. dah nasib badan.. kena sabar laaa... Allah je la yang tahu ..

Banyak kali aku nak letak entry kat sini.. tapi tak kesampaian.. ari ni kira dah sampai seru la.. heheheh... susah benor.. kalau dulu selalu ada je entry.. ni dah berjuta-juta lemon gambar nak upload ni kat sini dalam phone aku.. blum lagi aku ada peluang.. nanti la kotttt...

oklah .. nanti-nanti lagi.. nak pi amik kacang panggang kat sebelah ni.. dagggg...

m(^_^)m

teru teru bozu..

Lembut Gigi dari Lidah

2010-06-24T00:20:00.002+08:00

korang tau kan apa maksudnya... aku saja je nak luahkan.. geram pun ade.. tapi asyik kena tipuuuu jer nak wat cam mana kan...

Terus Terang Aku...

2010-06-23T23:44:00.006+08:00

dah benci tengok muka engko tau... kenapa lah engko tak mati lagi ni?... daripada engko datang, baik engko berambus!

Sadis ... sungguh sadis..

Itu lah perkataan yang akan keluar bila kita marah. Kita sanggup ucapkan perkataan yg sadis bila hati penuh dengan rasa benci, syaitan durjana.. terus menerus meniupkan api kebencian itu dalam hati manusia.

Mengucap panjang kalau boleh berzikir 1000 kali istifar. InsyaAllah sedikit demi sedikit titik titik hitam legam dalam hati kita itu terkikis dan terhakis dari ia merebak dan meliputi segenap hati kita itu. Allah sedang menguji kita kerana Allah sayangkan umatNya. Kita yang kadang kala alpa dan lupa mengenaiNya.

Kita cari kesalahan orang yang terdekat dan terdedah dengan amarah serta amukan kita. Ya, memang benar sekali jika mau dikatakan, selagi ada mulut dan selagi ada suara, semburan kata-kata yang menguji insan lain yang ditujukan sungguh mencabar keimanan.

Dunia kadang menjadi indah seperti lampu neon dan gemerlapan hiasan canggih di masa kini. Dunia Akhirat tak ramai yang mengejarnya... kerana rutinnya yang kadang tidak molek dan glamorous seperti dunia. Kepercayaan bahawa ganjaran Akhirat kurang menjadi topik utama. Semuanya lebih kepada dunia.

Aku semakin merasa dunia ini tidak begitu indah. Mungkin kerana peristiwa demi peristiwa yang berlaku. Kadang kejutan juga dibuatnya... tapi Alhamdullilah ... aku masih berfikiran bahawa, ini dugaan dan ujian dari Allah. Perlu berkali-kali mengingatkan diri. Kadang sampai terasa belum cukup lagi bekal dan iman yang kuat...

Sandaran harapan dan impian seperti mengapai di awangan luas tanpa pautan.... kecewa memang kecewa.. sebagai seorang yang realistik.. kita perlu sedar tu..

Cuma, kita sendiri merasa positif.. kita yang mulai ungkapan maaf supaya terlerai kekusutan itu... kita yang sedia melupakan apa yang telah diutarakan .. supaya sempat amuk itu reda...

Mungkin cara itu tidak mendapat sambutan kerana mungkin bukan itu yang diharapkan.. Aku serahkan kepada Allah dan aku redha atau cuba membuatkan hati ku redha... bukan mudah.. teramat susah sebenarnya.. kerana kita tidak ingin menghukum.. let's leave it to Allah to judge.

Yang buruk itu datangnya dari daku... yang baik semuanya dari Allah...terus terang aku ingin katakan.. bukan mudah menjadi seorang yang penyabar... bukan mudah untuk menjadi seorang yang pemaaf.... bukan mudah menjadi seorang yang bertakwa kepada Allah..

Jodoh, Maut dan Rezeki... Ya Allah tentukan lah bagiku yang terbaik dan layak untuk ku.. sesungguhnya aku ada juga baiknya.. ada juga untungnya orang memiliki aku.. ada juga gunanya... Aminnn...

Aku bersyukur kepada Mu, nafasku masih panjang.. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.

Kata Kau

2010-06-21T16:31:00.004+08:00

Ahhaaa... ni bukan rancangan baru kat astro ya.. hehehe tapi dah masuk topik ni kan.. aku sebenarnya tak paham rancangan tu.. kata sapa?.. aku?.. kau juga yang diorang nak.. kekekeke

Anyway.. nak cakap benda yang aku paham pasal kata kau kau ni.. hehehe..

itu kata kau.. kata aku cam ner?.. tapi kan.. cuba pikir.. bila kita yang berkata demikian.. orang lain pun bleh cakap macam tu juga.. so sebenarnya tak de yang menang atau yang kalah..

Kata kau gini.. kata ku gitu.. bila kata kau dan kata ku boleh serasi.. tak de masalah dah.. ada dua makna...

satu: masing-masing bersetuju tetang sesuatu... ATAU

dua: masing-masing boleh menerima selisih pendapat itu.. maknanya.. dua2 pendapat pun ada betulnya ada salahnya..

nombor satu tu memang selalu orang nak.. tapi bukan mudah nak dapat..

nombor dua tu memang susah nak dapat.. tapi bila dapat jer.. waaaa.. tak akan lepas punya la..

So kata kau ke kata aku?... hehehehehe .. dalam islam hanya yang beriman saja mungkin ada pandangan yang berbeza mungkin? Wallahualam...

Blog Makeover

2010-06-21T16:24:00.003+08:00

Blogspot came out with some new templates.. not that I don't approved but... wellll.. its still alright.. not that its not pretty or awesome and all.. but everyone has their own preference.. hehehe

Anyway.. love some of the things they have improved. Thanks blogspot..

So this day forward.. my theme will be of a lighter pink... of course until I can come up with something else that is.. :-)

Enjoy cotton candy look.. cheerio!

Kerja Untuk Terus Hidup.. Atau...

2010-06-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

Oh ya.. gimana.. terus apa?.. terus kan hiduplah.. apa lagi.. :-)

Sekarang ni pekerjaan ada macam-macam.. semua akan menjana kewangan walaupun sedikit... so jadinya semua orang nak kerja...dari gaji kecil terus usaha sehingga jadi gaji besar ... Saya pun mau gaji besar memandangkan saya mempunyai tanggungan yang boleh tahan juga..

Rata-rata semua orang nak hidup senang tapi memperolehi kesenangan itu bukan sesuatu yang mudah... kita perlu berusaha lebih cekau.. hehehehe. Senario demi senario yang mencabar keimanan dan kendiri serta kewibawaan kita sebagai seorang manusia, ibu atau ayah, anak, saudara, teman dan sebagainya. Kaki ingin melangkah tapi ada saja halangan yang mencegah hayunannya.

Kerja banyak-banyak kerja, semua pun nak kerja yang menguntungkan.. bawa duit. Siapa yang tak nak kan? Kadang ada yang rasa itu hak dia sebab dia yang bekerja keras memperolehinya. Maka dia yang berhak ke atasnya. Macam mana tu ya, orang lain pun main peranan juga, takkan mereka tak dapat sikit pun.

Lagipun kan untuk hidup, lebih-lebih lagi untuk beramal jariah. Lebih berkat gitu.. hehehehe

Anyway, apa jua pekerjaan yang halal, pasti diredhai dan diberkati Allah. Hidup tak hidup kita pada esoknya, tak kira la kerja tu siap tak siap, kena beringat, anytime boleh Allah tarik dan anytime juga Allah beri.

Bersyukurlah kita kerana ada kerja untuk kita hidup atau pun lazimnya, kerja untuk kita belanja orang lain hidup sama-sama atau pun untuk masa depan zuriat kita.

Wallahualam Bisawab.

=n(^_^)n=

Apa itu Keluarga?

2010-05-16T11:38:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum semua.

Dah dua hari hati saya cukup rawan, cukup sedih dan cukup terguris. Tapi tak apa lah, saya maafkan mereka. Mereka juga manusia yang ada perasaan marah, benci dan sebagainya.

Syukur saya masih tidak menyisihkan mereka walaupun saya agak memencil diri dan segala apa yang saya lakukan, saya cukup berahsia. Satu, kerana saya tak nak mereka susah hati. Tapi apa natijahnya? Seperti biasa, ketidakpahaman tahap bandar.

Saya rasa sudah tibanya masanya saya mengorak langkah, demi langkah, tanpa memandang belakang lagi.

Bagi saya, definisi saya akan keluarga adalah mereka yang memahami kita ketika orang bersalah sangka, menenangkan kita ketika orang memporakperandakan hati kita, sentiasa memberi sokongan ketika orang memperlekehkan kita, menyayangi kita tak kira orang benci kita dan menasihati kita ketika kita berbuat salah.. meminta maaf ketika melakukan salah terhadap kita. berbincang dengan baik dan apa pun keadaan, tidak memburukkan keadaan.

Tapi sesungguhnya keluarga kita itu juga manusia... makanya apa pun keburukan, ketidakbaikan dan juga kekurangan mereka, kita terima dengan redha dan biasanya.. kita tidak menyimpan dendam..

Namun jika itu juga yang dilakukan oleh keluarga kita... saya sendiri tidak pasti apa yang akan saya lakukan.. setakat ini, saya hanya menelan saja apa jua perlakuan mereka. Pernah kawan rapat saya menyisih saya kerana apa yang dikatakan pada mereka oleh keluarga saya sendiri. itu baru sedikit yang saya tau.. selebihnya.. biasanya saya berusaha untuk tidak memperdulikannya.. apa yang biasa saya lakukan adalah berdiam diri, menangis sendiri dan berdoa dengan Allah, hati mereka akan terbuka dan sedar akan perbuatan mereka.

Ada juga kawan-kawan rapat yang beralih menjadi seperti keluarga. Ada juga saudara yang lebih rapat menjadi adik beradik. Adik-adik ku yang lain juga begitu.. mereka begitu rapat malahan kami cuma bertemu apabila kami dapat bertemu. Namun kemesraan itu tetap di situ.

Entahlah.. bagiku istilah keluarga ini bergantung kepada sillatul rahim yang terjalin dan segala dugaan yang datang menentukan keeratan dan keakraban sesuatu sillatul rahim tersebut.

Begitu ramai yang saya jumpa begitu sudi menghulurkan sillatul rahim terhadap saya. Saya sebenarnya merasa terharu mereka boleh menganggap saya saudara mereka. Adakah perlu saya memutuskan semua itu hanya kerana keegoan sesetengah pihak, atau kemarahan sesetengah orang terhadap saya? banyak dugaan yang saya lalui dalam hidup saya yang rasanya begitu singkat. Ramai yang rata-rata tidak mempercayai segalanya saya lalui selama hidup saya di muka bumi ini.

Terlalu banyak, terlalu banyak air mata saya mengalir... banyak yang mereka tidak tau kerana saya tidak memberitahu semuanya.. kerana saya cukup menyimpan segalanya di dalam hati saya. Hati saya ini tidak ada yang menjaga.. rata-rata hanya mau mengambil tak endah hati saya..

Ada seseorang yang mengatakan.. saya kelihatan kuat.. tetapi sebenarnya di dalam hati saya, selembut kapas dan jika kapas itu dibakar, sekejap saja ianya hangus. Hanya Allah saja yang tahu.. bertapa kecewanya hati saya ini. Namun, seperti apa yang Ustaz dan Ustazah yang saya kenal, Allah tak akan menguji mu jika kamu tidak dapat menangungnya...

Ya Allah dugaan mu terlalu hebat.. tak dapat saya bayangkan apa jua tindakan yang akan hambaMu ini lakukan.. semuanya ada akibat nya.. samada positif atau negatif..

InsyaAllah, sebagai seorang yang masih ada prinsip dan amalan, saya akan dapat juga mencari kebahagiaan saya... kini baru ku tahu kenapa aku begitu terlalu berdikari.

Tak apa lah.. keluarga.. itu saja yang kita ada buat masa ini. Bila tiba masanya.. Allah akan menguji mereka juga nanti.. Wallahu Alam..

Mother's Day is always on everyday.. Parents' Day..

2010-05-10T07:31:00.001+08:00

Lots of wishes for Mother's Day this month..

I was wishing my mum.. my dad had passed away almost 4 years ago.

Love them both and hoped that i can make them proud...

Perginya Pejuang Kecil

2010-05-08T20:49:00.004+08:00

Sesungguhnya maut itu datang tanpa diduga dan juga dalam keadaan serta situasi juga kondisi yang tidak mungkin boleh digapai dengan akal dan suara hati.

Cuma, bila ia bertandang kadang dengan pelbagai rupa kita mungkin mengelak. Apa yang kita boleh perbuat ialah berjuang dan berusaha selain bertawakal.

Perginya arwah Akif meninggalkan kedua ibu bapa yang masih muda, semoga membuat keduanya lebih tabah, lebih erat dan lebih kasih sayangnya. Sesungguhnya Allah amat menyayangi arwah akif.

AKIF ISHRAF BIN MOHD NOOR AZAM pergi namun kenangan bersama kedua ibu bapanya yang tercinta pasti akan tersemat di hati nurani selamanya. Kenangan hari demi hari di lembaran facebook ibunya membuat saya begitu terharu dengan tabahnya hati ibunya, gigih usahanya serta kesabarannya.

Bukan mudah dan hanya Allah saja yang mengetahui isi hati adik ku irda dan suaminya.

Selamat tinggal akif, semoga Allah tempatkan akif di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

Al-Fatihah.

IT MIGHT BE YOU (Stephen Bishop)

2010-04-28T07:15:00.003+08:00

Time, I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there could be someone
Waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you and
I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life
It's you, it's you I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you Maybe it's you I've been waiting for all of my life.

I don't know but suddenly I was humming this old song today.. it's been awhile since I sang any of the oldies.. used to sing some.. long time ago.. i grew up with the 70's, 80's and 90's best hits... mum used to hum and sing some for us..I used to play the keyboard and never missed to play mum's favourite oldies.. Unchained Melody.. she LOVES that song.. and its the first song that I learned and played. I used to know how to play the guitar but.. nowadays.. that seems so long ago.. I don't I can cram up a cord or two.. hehehehehe...

So oldies fans out there... debut for Stephen Bishop... :-)

=(>^<)=

Zee Avi - Bitter Heart

2010-04-22T22:10:00.005+08:00

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.

I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinner's getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.

Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

Zee Avi is a Malaysian that has make it big in LA, USA, with her sultry and beautiful voice. I was hooked, lined and sinkers with her Bitter Heart song. And here is her Bio, www.zeeavi.com.

She's only 23 and she's borne in MIRI. So folks.. she is just nearby.

m(^_^)m teru teru bozu is back!

Mesen Basuh Kesayangan BROKE DOWN

2010-04-17T08:28:00.005+08:00

IS the betul la.. isk isk isk.. Napa la cayang break down time ni??? Tidak kah cayang kecian kat Anje ni....Adusssss

Skru cayang apsal tak kuat?.. sapa yg buat kat cayang ni.. mesti sebab anje tak serbis kan... cayang merajuk ya.... alalalala.. meh sini anje bersihkan..

Nanti ada abang pomen tu datang bawa skru baru tau... tapi tak tau la bila.. sebab anje tak jumpa dah warranty card tu hah.. isk isk isk.. pindah rumah tahun lepas entah mana plak letak dah... tapi jangan risau.. ari ni lepas cuci kain guna TANGAN.. arrggggggg.. anje akan cuba SEDAYA UPAYA.. (kononnya) cari k? Jangan nak ngorat kat abang pomen tu yaaa... anje tinggal karang beli mesen baru kang... padan muka.. kekekekeke

Sebenarnya tempat mesen ni ditempatkan, permukaan dia tak rata.. so asyik2 kena betulkan kedudukannya setiap kali membasuh..kemungkinan besar.. ada yang tak buat apa yang biasa saya buat.. so tak leh nak marah... gerammmmmm jerr...

Memang skru dia fuyo.. patah... hai.. nak buat cam mana.. repair la... nak beli baru.. dah survey harga.. mak oi.. yang saya nak tu.. dapat la dalam 1450... tau la saya ni jenis orang yang "is the" juga.. nak yang tahan lamaa, nak juga yang standard la konon... mesen saya ni pun dah lama pakai.. cuma gambar kat atas tu je nampak baru.. ngehehehehe...

Nanti saya akan amik gambar cayang saya tu.. tempek kat sini.. huhuhuhu...

Nak cuci baju guna MANUAL dulu... harksssss...

m(^_^)m teru teru bozu is back!

PST: sk, bila mau belanja makan ni? :-)

Facebook oh Facebook

2010-04-16T08:39:00.000+08:00

Ini la sensasi masa kini.. yeah.. facebook.. sosial networking yang tengah top..

Saya pun ada kat situ.. huhuhuh...tapi saya guna pun kerana nak keep in touch ngan kengkawan yang berada di merata2 ... nak kumpul skali tu susah... kena book 3-4 restoran baru cukup.. kekekekeke.. dewan kat hotel tu mahal la plak.. tak cukup pitis ni..

Selang berapa hari tu, sepupu saya crita pasal facebook.. masa dia amik exam SPA.. salah satu soalannya adalah mengulas tentang bahayanya facebook. Dia tak cerita la apa dia tulis, tapi saya tahu dia akan tulis yang kaw-kaw punye... ngehehehe

Bagi saya, terpulang ngan individu. Kita nak kata ianya baik, memang ada baiknya juge.. nak kata "...sungguh jahati tu facebook"... pun boleh ape. Bukan kerana facebook tu bunuh orang.. tak.. tapi dia buat orang jadi gila ada, jadi sewel ada, jadi brutal ada, jadi kurang ajor pun ada... banyak sangat kes-kes dah berlaku.

Paling koman la.. orang menyamar jadi hantu, jadi-jadian atau bidadari atau pun gitu-gitu.. hehehehe... sure ramai pernah kena kan.. aik... wa pun pernah kena mah... bukan lu saja you know.. kkekekee

Lagi satu.. orang guna facebook nak bagitau ... HOI MANUSIA, JANTAN2 di luar sana.. ITU SAYA PUNYA BINI LAAAA... ahaks... ini satu pernyataan yang paling special.. sama ngan declaration of independence tau... kekekek.. Ehemm ehemm... "Pernyataan ini juga sah bagi mereka-mereka yang tengah hangit bercinta tak kira sejuk, panas atau suam... termasuk jantina yang sewaktu dengannya.... wakakakakakak... betui tak kawang-kawang????

Itu belum ada lelaki-lelaki yang mengatai ngorat kat pumpuan2 dalam facebook.. sure target yang suka letak gambar memanyak dalam tu.. uish... posing maut dan posing kebil2 mata pun adeeeee.. sapa yang tak nak tengok kannn.. dah percuma tengok free2..

Otak manusia ni amazing tau... Boleh imagine macam2.....kalau kat layar perak boleh main wayang drama movie top.. kat otak manusia lagi la.. siap ngan full colour macam TV Sony Bravia tuuuuu... ahakss...

itu belum orang guna facebook nak jejak kasih.. sedara mare... adik beradik... suku sakat.. suma ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY... hehehe... itu blum masuk yang kena ban dari join the club.. kekeke.. ya la.. dalam2 family pun ada juga kambing hitam putih ya tak.. so sure ada yang kena ignore je friend invitation request dia.. kekekekek.. sound and look familiar.. jgn nak kata korang tak buek iyaaa...

alahai.. tak kan la tak de yang baik? hehehehe.... boleh .. tapi kalau kita je yang buat baik.. kita je la yang buat baik.. kekeke.. tak yah la nak pedulikan orang lain.. cumaaaa... katakan la apa yang kita buat tu baik.. boleh menjangkiti orang lain supaya menjadi baek... apa salah nye.. kan kan kan...

aik? sekali lagi.. Wa bukan cakap wa baik ah... TAPI wa bukan jahat kotttt.. kakakakaka.. tak sure la.. sebab hanya Allah je dapat sebenar-benarnya menghisab kita.. baik tak baik.. dia lebih champion lebih berkuasa .. lebih segalanya... sendiri mo ingat la...

Saya dan lebih dari 500 friends.. itu termasuk adik beradik, sedara mare, ipar.. opss.. ipar duhai ade kott.. pas tu kawang2 kolej la, skolah la... macam2 adaaaa... tu blum asyik main game dalam facebook lagi.. kekekeke... dapat lagi kengkawan sekaki dan seangkatan serta sewaktu dengannya...HOI!!! tak de keja ka???... kekekeke.. adaaa.. relaks ah brader.. kuikuikui... jeles member ngan akuuuu.... yeah...

Ahaks... itu la saya kata... macam mana nak kata elok tak elok.. dah kita yang control kan.. facebook tu tak bernyawa.. yang kita ni ada nyawa.. facebook cuma jadi medium untuk kita... kita yang manipulasi medium itu untuk dijadikan yang baik.. atau pun suewwww...

So.. bak kata nabil.. otak ada tak?... hah.. ko pikir la sendiri!!!... har har har.. caya la nabil.. walaupun wa bukan dari nogori sembilan..tapi wa caya la luu...

m(^_^)m teru teru bozu is back!

p.s: sk, kadang menjadi orang lain itu membawa kita lebih dekat kepada diri kita yang dulu.. i miss her too... :-)

Meet Uncle Hussain - Lagu Untukmu

2010-04-14T12:10:00.004+08:00

Tiada bintang
Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicelah
Bagaiku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri
Aku tetap begini
Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku
Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku

(Chorus)
Guna hati, akal dan fikiranmu
Berbeza
Kau dan juga aku
Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu

Apakah aku
Hanya boneka yang sering engkau mainkan
Yang dikawal oleh jari-jarimu
Ku punya hati dan perasaan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan
Cukup cukuplah oh cukuplah

(Chorus)

Tak faham tak tahan
Sabarku tak tertahan
Melayan sikapmu perawan
Berbeza-berbeza
Kau dan aku berbeza
Kita memang tak serupa
Bebaskan bebaskan
Ku ingin dilepaskan
Kita tidak sehaluan
Cukuplah sudahlah
Sampai di sini saja
Hubungan kita berdua
Hoa... hoa... hoa...

(Chorus)

D'Masiv - Cinta Ini Membunuhku

2010-04-14T11:31:00.004+08:00

Kau membuat, ku berantakan.
Kau membuat, ku tak karuan.
Kau membuat, ku tak berdaya.
Kau menolak ku, acuhkan diri ku.

[#:]
Bagaimana, caranya untuk,
Meruntuhkan, kerasnya hati mu.
Ku sadari, ku tak sempurna,
Ku tak seperti, yang kau inginkan.

[Reff:]
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikap mu,
Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakiti ku.
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini, membunuh ku.

[#] ~~ [Reff]

[Interlude]

[Reff]

Woo... Hu~u... Haa...
Lelah hati ini meyakinkan mu,
Cinta ini, membunuh ku.

Kejadian yang Jadi-jadian

2010-04-13T07:45:00.004+08:00

Sapa mau ulas ini benda? tak te kan.. hehehehe tu la korang... tau ada kejadian.. korang jadikan jadi-jadian...

haaa.. wa cakap apa ni.. paham ke tak ni? Itu la susahnya.. saya punya BM pun dapat 2 juga..English ada baik skit.. hehehehe

Walaupun gitu, entah kalau berbahasa melayu ok je. Kadang bermadah2 lagi.. itu yang kawan2 saya cakap la.. dia kata tak serupa macam keturunan aku ni yang tak de langsung darah melayu atau pun sewaktu dengannya... dah lumrah... bahasa boleh dipelajari dan dikuasai apabila majoriti liputan pendengaran dan percakapan adalah bahasa itu sendiri.. macam orang pegi amerika, balik sini sure pelat ngan dengung dia jadikan dia seperti orang amerika.. itu baru cakap blum serap budaya lagi.. kalau budaya pun dah serap.. memang lain dah.. jadi orang jadi-jadian.. bukan betul...

ahaaa.. ada paham sudah sekarang? huhuhuh...

Saya juga bukan dari golongan keluarga yang mewah.. tapi kami pernah mewah dan senang.. punya segala-galanya.. TETAPI... kami tak hidup macam orang biasa. Setiap pagi hanya kami bertiga, pergi sekolah, balik sekolah dan main di perkarangan rumah SAHAJA. Teman kami, video game, gameboy, spelling bee (Texas Instrument), CARTOON (bugs bunny, coyote, you name it, we have it ALL), buku-buku dan juga... mummy kat umah. Mummy plak tak reti bawa kereta, daddy tak kasi. Soooo, duduk rumah lah. Buat mcm playground. hehehehe

Kitorang pernah rasa tahap bosan yang paling maksima. Angah amik kunci grill dan buka grill di balcony tingkat atas, kitorang sebagai pengikut2 yang setia giler ni.. ikut jer.. hehehehe.. hulur tali.. angah nak try turun ke bawah. Takut mummy tangkap..plan kitorang .. nak kuar rumah.. nak pi kat depan sana ada kedai runcit.. muahahahahaha....dajal ni..

tetapi.. wrong timing.. ayah balik... sretttt... terus tali ditarik supaya angah bleh masuk balik... TETAPI... Daddy dah nampak kitorang kat atas buat keje gila ni... so kena PENALTY la apa lagi...

kitorang kena suruh mandi dan makan awal... sekitar jam 5.30 dah siap suma.. daddy suruh kitorang duduk kat ruang tamu.. buat lotus feet dan letak palang T kat tangan dan bertafakur sampai la jam 7pm... nampak macam dera kan?.. kitorang semua pun tengah betul2 tak larat, tak selesa.. tapi itu la hukuman daddy waktu kocik2 .... bila ingat.. trauma seumur hidup.. so, tak de dah nak panjat2 apa2 lagi.. nak terjun mana2 pun tak berani dah.. nanti kena meditation macam tu.. tak mau gue...

Bila dah biasa dikongkong macam tu.. kitorang memang jadi rebellion.. kalau ada rekruit masuk askar.. kitorang la orang2 pertama mendaftar.. kah kah kaha...dan memang betul.. angah memang nak sangat jadi.. tapi tak jadi juga.. jadi jadian je.. kakkakaka.. angah keje welder.. tapi memang berani betul.. buat vertical welding dan upside down welding.. safety certificate semua dia ada... memang dia berani ... alang ni (saya la, sapa lagi) tak de la seberani angah ... along pun tak seberani tu...tabik la brader..

Ramai yang tak percaya saya ni memang tak campur orang.. tapi memang ramai kenalan.. hehehehe.. ada yang kata saya ni anti-sosial sebab saya pemilih... tapi ada yang kata saya ni terlebih sosial sebab nampak sangat ngan crowd huha2.. hehehehe.. tapi bagi saya.. yang penting.. saya jaga diri.. lagipun diorang tau, diorang tak bleh main2 ngan saya.. saya kata saya tak nak masuk pub.. toksah la dok paksa2 pujuk2.. clubbing apa tah lagi.. hehehe..tapi tak bererti saya tak kawan manusia2 yang clubbing, masuk pub, minum, kaki perempuan, pe**c*r, ketua samseng, samseng, etc. Sapa lagi yang ada untuk jadi contoh kalau bukan kita yang kononnya baik...jadi-jadian ada la.. lagi bahaya.. tul tak? hehehehe

Serigala bertopengkan domba.. itu pernyataan yang saya pernah dengar tak lama dulu. So kita nak jadi apa sebenarnya.. serigala atau domba.. atau topeng?.. kekekekek

Saya serius tapi saya lapikkan topik jadian ni supaya korang pikir.. ingat senang ke nak jadi baik?.. jadi jahat lagi senang.. macam kacang jer.. hehehe

Ada saya kata saya baik? tak de, tak de. Itu biarlah rahsia.. kakakak.. aku ngan Allah... Malaikat catit kiri kanan kita ni. Nak tipu manusia senang je, nak tipu Allah.. Astagfirullahalazim... sushah wo.. bukan lagi susah.. impossible beb...

So sape2 yang ada kejadian dan mereka menjadikan kejadian itu jadi-jadian.. itu orang pendusta yang paling hebat... saya cakap ni pun kerana dah acap kali kena.. kekeke.. apa yang kita nampak tak semestinya betul melainkan kita nampak dan dengar.. tapi apa yang kita nampak dan dengar tak semestinya betul melainkan kita tau isi hati ... di situ la Allah ada... hanya DIA yang mengetahui...

Aku tak percaya lagi ngan kata2 manis.. kata2 pahit pun mana bleh caya juga.. mana la tau ianya satu pembohongan tahap super CIPAN...

Modal aku di dunia ni kena top up beb.. makin berkurang je ku tengok.. ku rasa.. Sabar je la.. Allah pasti tunjukkan aku jalan lain ke sana.. hehehehe.. ke sana mana?... mana lagi beb... kembali ke pangkuan Allah la.. takkan ke pangkuan Syaitan... Nauzu' billah min zalik... jangan beb panas tuuuuuu... dah masuk sana... kekal plak tu... uishhh.... Nauzu' billah min zalik....

Hah.. tau takut?... itu la kita ni.. takut.. tapi buat juga.. hehehehe...

So barang2 nak kembalikan.. macam mana?.. bagi la alamat... apa yang perlu diselesaikan better selesaikan secara aman... tak payah lah nak ugut-ugutan (saya pun ada buat juga.. ngehehehe... taubat dah) ..kalau nak ugut.. tak pe ugut la.. timbulkan rasa takut kat dalam ati tu supaya takut buat dosa..

tak payah la nak marah2.. penat la.. nak merajuk tu saya rasa ok lagi.. tapi sampai nak maki2 tu .. saya surrender.. nak lawan makian tu bukan senang.. kena amik PHD tau..

Dah jadi-jadian saya ni.. awas.. kekekeke.. oklah.. itu aje.. tak luah mati bapa, telan mati mak.. cam tu la rasa gue tau....

Trima kasih!!!!...

m(^_^)m teru teru bozu is BACK!

Yuna - Dan Sebenarnya

2010-04-09T09:58:00.002+08:00

Oh bulan, enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi..........
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh
dan sebenarnya...
dan sebenarnya....
aku rindu......
dan sebenarnya....
dan sebenarnya....
aku tak mampu........

Apabila dalam kesusahan...

2010-04-06T12:36:00.007+08:00

...apa yang akan anda lakukan? Menangis? Minta pertolongan? Cuba selesaikan sendiri? Sebenarnya tak ada jawapan yang betul atau salah. Setiap orang ada cara mereka tersendiri.

Ada yang bertindak menjauhkan atau menghindarkan diri dari perkara-perkara yang haram. Ada yang bertindak meneruskan perkara-perkara yang haram dengan harapan, masalah akan tetap berakhir dengan penyelesaian. Penyelesaian yang bagaimana? Hanya Allah saja yang tahu. Boleh saja ianya menjadi sesuatu yang tidak baik tapi kerana telah memilih jalan itu, terpaksa teruskan. Boleh saja yang baik, wallahualam...

Kalau baik bagus lah.. tapi kalau tak tu, sendiri kena pikir lah nak mengharungnya. Kadang kala penyesalan datang terlalu kemudian. Jadi kita tak sudah-sudah merasa rugi. Apa nak buat, dah terlambat. Yang tinggal hanya penyesalan. Masa sebegini, kita kena muhasabah diri dan mengaku yang kita sudah tersilap. Kita telah menganiaya dan menzalimi. Bertaubat dan memohon keampunan dari Allah dan orang yang telah kita sakiti itu rasanya jalan yang paling baik kerana ianya akan dihintung di Akhirat nanti.

Jangan lah kita selalu lupa membekalkan diri kita untuk akhirat. Lebih-lebih lagi pada mereka yang sudah berumahtangga. Banyak yang perlu dipertimbangkan dan bukan hanya nafsu semarak kita je yang dianggap penting. Dugaan yang datang ketika menjadi suami, ayah, ibu, isteri dan anak ini sebenarnya untuk menyedarkan kita, tanggungjawab serta bekalan dan amalan termasuklah contoh yang baik untuk anak-anak, isteri, mak ayah, mak dan ayah mentua dan yang lainnya bahawa anda seorang mukmin yang boleh membawa isteri dan anak-anak ke jalan Allah. Pada isteri, bahawa anda seorang muslimah yang boleh saling melengkapkan suami dalam rumahtangga atas semua urusan, mendidik anak-anak serta menjaga kebajikan mak ayah dan mak ayah mentua.

Apabila dalam kesusahan...saya merasa tindakan mendekatkan diri lebih lagi kepada Allah itu membawa banyak kemudahan, kebaikan dan juga dugaan yang hebat-hebat. Allah senantiasa menguji hambaNya. Kadang untuk mengajar kita erti sabar, bersyukur, redha, taubat, tanggungjawab, keutamaan di mana serta kesilapan kita.

Saya terpanggil untuk lebih menjaga pendirian, kesabaran, ilmu agama, kesilapan, juga priority (keutamaan), taubat dan kekuasaan Allah SWT. Begitu Allah menunjukkan pada saya, kupasan luaran seseorang insan yang lain dari sangkaan. Begitu berbeza sehingga tidak dikenalpasti sama ada sikapnya itu lahiriah atau pengaruh luaran. Namun saya juga tidak lepas dari hasutan syaitan, alpa, kurang kesabaran, sedih, marah dan sebagainya bercampur aduk melawan perasaan berperang tak sudah.

Apabila dalam kesusahan...berganding bahu dan mengelakkan diri dari dosa atau perkara yang mungkar serta saling menjaga keimanan itu saya dapati amatlah penting dalam mengharungi dugaan kesusahan itu. Nafsu perlu dikengkang, kebendaan perlu disenyapkan, keegoan perlu dikikis dari hati dan kepincangan perlu diperbaiki. Syaitan berkelibatan kecantikan, kebaikan seperti itu kebanyakannya hanya fatamorgana yang terlalu mengoda ketika saat ini kerana ingin membuat manusia begitu taksub dalam berbuat dosa dan jatuh serta berputus asa lalu terjerumus. Terlalu merasa yang sedia ada itu membebankan. Terlalu merasa Allah itu kejam. Terlalu merasa Allah telah memberikannya duri. Lalu sering mengejar bunga yang diingatnya wangi dan mau melupakan duri. Duri itu sering mengingatkan kita dengan kata-kata yang menyusup di kalbu tapi nyata. Bunga yang dikejar itu seperti bayangan yang mengasyikkan tapi sukar digapai. Kita menjadi seperti orang yang gila bayang.. mengejar dan terus mengejar. Sampai bila?

Begitu la adatnya manusia. Yang ada, disia-siakan, yang tidak pasti itu juga dikejar-kejar. Sendari dari mula mengejar, Allah sudah menyua akibatnya daripada pilihan yang dibuat untuk mengejar. Kebahagiaan yang bagaimana lagi yang ingin dikejar? Adakah pernah terfikir bahawa itu hanya lah desakan hawa nafsu kerana merasa diri terlalu hebat dan layak mendapat yang lebih baik?

Sememangnya apa ukuran kita pada "Yang Lebih Baik" itu? Apakah kita telah berusaha sehabis baik membuatkan yang sedia ada itu menjadi "Yang Lebih Baik"? Atau pernah kah kita terfikir bahawa Allah ingin kita bersyukur dengan yang sedia ada, sekurang-kurangnya ianya tidak lah seteruk mana?

Sungguh berat bahu memikul bila pandangan dipermudahkan dengan dosa. Saya sendiri merasa tidak pantas untuk memikul beratnya kerana saya sendiri masih belum mantap dan belum siap dalam soal ilmu.

Pada yang bujang... jangan membina kebahagiaan diri di atas penderitaan orang lain walau seringan mana sekali pun tanggapan kita terhadap beban perasaan dan penderitaan yang dipikulnya. Kita yang melihat, tidak merasa. Kita cenderung mendahulukan diri kita sendiri kerana merasa kita juga layak bahagia. Tapi, adakah kita akan bahagia atau adakah kita ingin bahagia hanya pada secukup waktu seperti setahun, 5 tahun? Saya sendiri ingin seumur hidup, long term. Bahagia pada long term ini pada manusia sukar untuk dijangka tapi dengan Allah, jawapannya PASTI.

Jadi, bahagia dicari atas jalan Allah itu secara batinnya adalah lebih baik bukan?

Kesusahan itu mengajak kita berusaha dan memperbaiki, bukan saja pada yang kita lihat pincang tapi juga diri kita yang perlu kita acknowledge kepincangannya.

Saya, sememangnya tengah dalam kesusahan. Namun, saya yakin Allah ada di sisi saya. Ya Allah, Yang Maha Esa, saya bersyukur pada nikmat yang Allah berikan. Masih sihat untuk bekerja, masih mampu bersabar, masih mampu menyara selayaknya. Begitu besar kurniaMu terhadap diri saya. Saya juga punya kelemahan kerana memang sedar saya juga bukan yang sempurna. Namun Alhamdullilah saya masih mampu menyimpulkan satu senyuman yang masih dianggap manis pada mereka yang sayangi saya. Terima kasih ya Allah.

Apabila dalam kesusahan...kita perlu ingat kita hanyalah hambaNya. Begitu banyak saya mendalami ilmu, makin dahaga saya akan ilmu agamaMu ya Allah.

Wanita yang Dirindukan Syurga - M Fauzi Rachman

2010-03-30T19:24:00.003+08:00

Buku ini juga mengandungi ibadah-ibadah khusus wanita.

Saya tengah membaca buku ini, masih belum selesai. Baru masuk Bab 3, Kenikmatan Syurga bagi Wanita yang Mengerjakan Kebaikan.

Buku ini adalah antara buku-buku agama islam yang saya dapatkan dari teman di Indonesia. Jangan la membuat perhitungan terlalu cepat bahawa saya pro kepada hasil redaksi para penulis Indonesia. Saya cuma terpanggil untuk menebarkan jangkauan saya ke negara jiran kerana asalnya rekomendasi dari seorang teman di Malaysia. Seorang Ustaz yang telah membuka jalan dan seterusnya saya jatuh cinta kepada buku pertama yang saya miliki, Bahagiakan Diri Dengan Satu Isteri oleh Bapak Cahyadi Takariawan. Ustaz Hasrizal sendiri juga sudah menerbitkan dua buku hasil tulisan beliau sendiri.

Saya ketika itu begitu runsing, dahagakan penjelasan, inginkan ketenangan jiwa dan ketandusan ilmu agama yang tepatnya membawa saya lebih dekat denganNya. Hidup saya sebegitu kacau bilau, teraniaya dan hampir membuat saya hilang pedoman. Sungguh menyedihkan keadaan diri saya. Saya langsung hilang keupayaan untuk berfikir dan bertindak mendekati Allah.

Keadaan sekeliling dan orang-orang di sampingku begitu menipis kesabaran mereka juga. Maka saya makin kurang yakin dengan diri dan kurang merasa bererti kehidupan saya.

Mujur dengan perkenalan yang tidak diduga bermulanya episod saya mencari identiti diri sendiri, begitu payah untuk bangun sendiri, namun dapat juga saya meneruskan langkah. Selepas satu buku, tambah dua buku. Selepas itu, saya mula menyedari keupayaan diri saya sendiri dan begitu Allah senantiasa menguji saya selaku hambaNya.

Buku ini menarik perhatian saya seperti La Tahzan, Working Mothers. Sekali sekala ada juga saya diajari ibadah-ibadah yang khusus namun buku ini juga mempunyai keistimewaannya....Dari mula saya mula membacanya saya sudah begitu tertarik untuk menyingkap helaian seterusnya dan seterusnya dan seterusnya. Namun banyak juga aktiviti-aktiviti yang membantutkan pembacaan ku. Normal bagi semua orang melainkan lah benar-benar tidak ada gangguan langsung.

Buku ini juga mengupas situasi dan kondisi yang dapat kita laksanakan ibadah seperti zikir kepada Allah, Solat, mengaji, bersillaturahim, bersedekah dan sebagainya. Kerana ianya menceritakan perihal ibadah khusus wanita, ibadah juga termasuk berbakti kepada suami dan menguruskan anak. Ini juga ibadah dan sebagai seorang mukmin, suami juga perlu menyedarinya dan kefahaman serta sokongan suami juga amat perlu dalam ibadah-ibadah sedemikian dan tidak hanya tertakluk dalam melayan suami dan anak-anak.

Secara ringkasnya, lelaki mahupun wanita, memiliki bahagian yang sama untuk beribadah kepadaNya. Tidak ada lebih dah tidak ada kurangnya. Cuma dalam keadaan yang tertentu, ada amalan yang khusus diperlakukan oleh lelaki dan hal yang sama dengan wanita.

Mahu membacanya, boleh lah mendapatkan dari saya. TAPI bukan untuk pinjaman, tetapi pembelian. KENAPA? kerana ianya perlu dibaca berulang kali. Manusia kan mudah lupa.

Yang baik itu dari Allah, yang sebaliknya itu dari saya sendiri.

Was'salam

Perjalanan Manusia

2010-03-29T08:10:00.004+08:00

Tengah add2 kengkawan baru dan lama dalam facebook, aku tekan brek kat photo fb liyana ni.. jom kongsi..

Sapa-sapa dok kecik ati ngan aku.. sila bagitau.. jgn dok simpan lama-lama jadi pekasam.. mana la tau dapat juga aku minta maaf ya tak?.. aku ni kan pelupa orangnya..

Ngeh ngeh ngeh.. ehehe

Mendungnya ari ni

2010-03-29T07:36:00.002+08:00

Alamaakkk.. ari ni ujan... lepas tu bila dah berenti ujan.. mendung... gelapnya awan.. ni kat office ni sure lentok macam hindustan ni... hua hua hua.. hehehe...

Laaaa... dah start ujan balik...hrrmmm....

Mirip Ramlan la...

2010-03-29T06:07:00.003+08:00

Di kala aku tengah mencari-cari teman-teman lama waktu belajar, aku terserempak ngan sorang ni mirip muka seorang teman yang suatu ketika dulu sering menjadi sumber pembekal salinan foto lesen memandu beliau.. hehehe.. dapat sewa kancil dah ha... hehehehe...

Entah kenapa terdetik bertanya pada empuya diri... mana ler tau kannn.. kot nye adik dia ke, dia ke, apa ke .. tak tanya tak tau.. betui tak.. :-)

Rupanya salah orang... adesss.. tak pe la.. usaha mencari tu akan diteruskan... tapi aku rasa mungkin aku tak salah orang.. ya la.. kotnya Allah dah tentukan pertemuan kita ngan orang-orang tertentu.. untuk mempelajari dan mengajari sesuatu misalannya .. pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya tu.. hhaaa.. dan start dah.. hehehee.. part ni ramai yang lebih tau dari aku ni.. aku ni orang baru.. hehe orang baru yang dah lapuk.. muahahahahaha

Orangnya sapit. eh salah.. namanya sapit.. jgn ditanya kenapa.. baca blog dia ler.. hehehe.. pangkat adik.. tinggal kat ..eh?.. korang baca la sendiri yek.. hehehe..

ni kenalan baru gue... aku dah ramai adik ni.. hehehe.. next nak cari kakak lak.. hehehe.. ish.. tak bleh.. kakak dah ramai.. yang ada ni pun tak terlayan.. abang?.. er.... adeee kot.. hehehe

Klik la kat sini kalau nak jumpa sapit dan nak tau.. sapa sapit ni?.. monster? Alien? Superman?... :-)

Zasssss.. layannnnn....

KeburukanKu

2010-03-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

Malam ni aku terasa sayu betul, kira tahap sedih yang teramat sangat. Tak terluah rasa hati ni dan tertanggung rasa berat pisau belati mencarik koyak rabak setiap pelusuk jantung ni. Nak kata aku ni terasa, memang la. Nak kata mungkin itu semua kata-kata yang sekadar ucapan, tak dapat aku bayangkan bila aku cakap benda yang sama ngan orang lain, lebih-lebih lagi kat orang yang cakap aku cam tu. Sure kena penampar, kalau tak pun amarah yang berapi.

Keburukanku cengeng, keburukanku suka duduk luar merenung langit dan bintang, keburukanku suka beredar mengelak lagi banyak kata-kata amarah, keburukanku terlalu sayang pada orang, Terlalu banyak keburukanku. Semuanya crita keburukanku. Kebaikan mereka, terlalu menyerlah. Sehingga menjadi topik hangat keburukanku.

Semuanya keburukanku. Itu lebih penting dari keburukan orang lain. Orang lain dipuja bagaikan manusia yang sempurna. Bestnya jadi orang lain itu. Sesiapa pun tidak mahu diungkit berulang kali keburukan. Mahunya rata-rata semua manusia ingin diketengahkan kebaikan.

Bercerita benda-benda yang baik, yang memberi rasa gembira, senang dan mengundang ketawa, pastinya datang dari kata-kata yang baik, berbaur lucu, kadang-kadang serius tetapi masih membuat orang yang diperkatakan itu dalam keadaan baik. Bila seseorang mengatakan sesuatu yang baik, pengharapan yang ada pasti orang yang dituju itu pun menyambung suasana baik itu. Tapi bila suasana itu dijerut dan dicantas pantas dengan kata-kata negatif, emosi pasti terganggu. Dari happy, boleh menjadi sedih atau kecewa atau keduanya. Marah pun juga.

Namun malam ni perasaan ku lebih kepada sedih dan kecewa. Kecewa yang aku masih dilayan seperti orang spastik.. kalau tak pun macam orang tak punya akal.

Apa nak buat.... itu la hakikatnya. Keburukanku sudah mengantikan kedudukan kebaikanku. Keindahanku sudah menjadi kehodohanku. Segalanya yang baik terlempar jauh beribuan batu kerana yang sentiasa di ketengahkan di sini selalunya keburukanku. Normal kot rasanya, terutamanya bila sudah tidak punyai perasaan sayang.... Wallahualam.

Gila? Entah la. Aku sebenarnya faham aku di mana. Mungkin cuma tidak pasti, sama ada perjalananku ke mana hala tujunya. Ya Allah, hanya Dikau mengetahuinya.

Keburukanku ... terlalu mengugat sehingga sentiasa diingati. Berbaloi kah? Wallahualam bisawab....

TRansfer FActor

2010-03-19T18:40:00.002+08:00

Rasanya baru je tahun lepas nampak perkataan di atas kat WhateverLah. So tribute to Abg Fooart's blog la juga. har har har...hehehehe

Kawan saya ni hah.. tengah promote. Memang income baik punya tarikkkk. Saya salute mereka suami isteri berganding bahu bersama. Siap masing-masing ada account dalam perniagaan 4life ni.

Tabik betul la. Saya pun akan bertemuramah dan berdiskusi ngan akak ni.. hehehe. Suami dia kata, cakap ngan akak lagi senang.. hehehe..

Itu lah.. masa je tengah suntuk untuk saya. Banyak keje nak kena siap tapi tak bleh juga. Mesti luangkan masa untuk benda-benda macam ni. Generate Income mah..

Macam biasa, super duper superman dan spiderman saya akan jadi bodyguard saya dan sambil-sambil tu superman dan spiderman for sure akan membelek-belek mainan yang ada kat kedai akak ni. ish ish ish...

Esok kena kemas rumah, bawa superman, spiderman dan ultraman jalan-jalan. hehehehe.. bawa tapau.. tak larat nak berMcD ngan diorang ni.

Har Har har.. hehehehe